I'm horrible again

I went St James.

I was suppose to meet Arin and Razim there. Fcukenly, Praba was there. I didn't know.

Then Sufardi, was like... Can I see who you here with? He was worried I guess. Like me in a club, and after all, he does have feelings for me... which means he cares for me.

Aiyahh, then I couldn't find my friends. So I introduced him to Praba. Shittt. Do you know how I felt? I lied to Sufardi, saying he was just a friend. I lied. I am a liar. I feel so bad. All Sufardi did, was just being caring BUT I fuckingly, LIED. Fcukfcukfcuk. I hate myself.

I met Haniff at St James also that night.

Oh! And hehe, I kissed Sufardi at the smoking room last night. FCUKEN HOT OKAY. *shuts eyes* I kissed a bouncer at a club. I am giggling.

I might be in love. After all, I've known him for about a month now.