After Easter

Today is the first day of school after the Easter Holidays.

It was okayyyy, 1400 to 1600 with Owen. Economics. It was gooooood. I like school. I don't know why. The teachers here are very friendly.

And then 1600 to 1800 with Sandra. QM.

Well, in the morning, I sent off the gifts for my boyfriend and his parents to SG. I sure hope it reaches them. Sigh. I am so worried, and I feel that I cannot trust the post office. But then again, everyone sends their mail/parcel there.

I had coffee and lunch at Starbucks while talking on the phone with Sufardi. He's really cute and smart. I think he is really smart.

Bank Holiday

I stayed home. The whole day. Study. Ate. Study. Wanted to cut my hair but it's close everywhere, because it's bank holiday. That's why School is close.

Pfft.

Sufardi ain't working though! He is so sexy. HAHAHAHHA.

OH! HAPPY EASTER!

Wedding in London

Today I had to wake up very early to go to a Bengali/Hindi wedding. Sheeshh. I had to wear a Bengali outfit. I am more Indian here in London than in SG. I didn't wanna go, but I was kinda curious. Like how they have weddings here in London.

From Walthamstow, we went to Ilford and then to the Groom's house. And then to the wedding.

The bride - it's her wedding right, but she doesn't smile. She was bigger than the groom and, I think Nashrin, Azlin and Nazimah are wayyy prettier than her. Well, what I am trying to say is, thank goodness my cousins they look normal. Because the rest of the other Indian at the wedding certainly don't look any prettier than them.

I left early, because, I had to be home by tonight. I have so many things to be done. Homeworks and uni shittsssss.

I took the train from Walthamstow to Hammersmith and took bus 266. I was sorta lost, haha, but I manage to find my way. It is really nice here in London, very similar to Singapore. But you know, on SG escalators, we stand on the left, they stand on the right. That has been very different for me. Because back then, in SG, I am a very particular person to stand on the left when boarding escalators, Like, I would criticise and screw someone if they were to stand on the right. Over here, when I stand on the left, I get criticised and screwed by the Londoners.

Well, I got home, and THIS IS MY FIRST NIGHT, WITHOUT MY MUM, WITHOUT MY COUSINS, JUST ME.

I made a mess in my room, to remind myself I can do whatever I want! HAHAHAHAHHA. But I cleared things. And now, my room feels so homely.

I'm off to studying. BYeeeeeeeeeeee

Cake

Today is Nazimah's birthday. We woke up late today, cooked lunch, and then went back to Walthamstow at 3pm

They had a surprise party for her. And there was cake and everything. It ended around 6pm.I fell asleep at 7pm and woke up at 9pm.

I spoke to Sufardi on the phone, and then went to sleep. Tired.

I wanted to send the stuff I bought for my boyfriend to SG, but the post office is close today. I need to unlock the phone I bought for Sufardi.

For example, if you buy a phone with Singtel you can only use Singtel SIM card. But over here, it's Vodafone, Orange, T Mobile, 3. So I had to unlock the phone so I could use any SIM card.
But the man wanted to keep it for a day, which I don't trust him. So I went back to the shop near my place to do it. And I'll send all the stuff when post office opens.

After that, we headed to Hard Rock Cafe London. It was nice. There weren't any stages, well I didn't see any. It was just like a cool cafe, where they played loud music and dining in. I went with Aslin and Nazimah. We took pictures.

I did miss Sufardi, because the last time I went there was on my boyfriend's birthday. Boy, I miss him.

After that, we headed to West 12, to watch the movie, 17 Again - Zac Efron.

And then headed home.

Westfield

We slept so late last night. We woke up at 3pm. Collected my laptop and then we went westfield again! This time I bought

1. a DKNY Bag for myself
2. a DKNY Wallet for my boyfriend's mum
3. perfume for his dad
4. a touch screen phone for my boyfriend, uk version
5. a sexy red coat for nazimah
6. river island shoes
7. perfume for nashrin
8. earrings for myself

So cool, then we took a cab back home. We cooked, and they watched more movies and I talk to Sufardi.

Azlin And Nazimah

I woke up around 10am.

Azlin and Nazimah came back to my place. We arrived around noon. Cooked and had lunch.

I tried turning on my laptop. I don't know why it doesn't work. I sent it for repair at this computer shop in front of my house. It cost me like 150pounds. Shitts.

I lost all my memory. Every program I had.

We headed to Westfield. I bought a Mango jacket! It's soooo pretty. And then bought Azlin a brown jacket! It's so vintage. When I first saw it, I was like, omg this is gonna fit Azlin so well. I bought it for her.

We went back home cos it was dark by that time and we cooked dinner and watched desperate housewives. OMG i miss that show. And then they watched movies.

They rented, Van Wilder, Ms Congeniality 2, Twilight, Angus, Thongs And Full Frontal Snogging. They watched it while I spoke to Sufardi on the phone.

Mum left

Today, mum left for the airport.

Yes, she went back to SG. I was there with Dadi, Shamir, Nazimah and Azlin.

I cooked for mummy for the last time in London. The cab came over at 1pm and we met them there. My daddy's uncle was also leaving for Bangladesh that day so we sent him off first. We had coffee and sandwiches at the cafe.

Mum left, I hugged and kissed her. I said I love you to her. And yeah, it was pretty sad and I will definitely miss her.

Then we took the piccaddilly line back home to Walthamstow to their house from Heathrow. Took us about like 2 hours.

So boring. I'm just blogging so I remember today. What the hell.

I miss FAMILY

Todayyy I stayed at home the whole day with my mum in ONE ROOM, hah!

I woke up, made breakfast. These days, I had a sudden loss of appetite. Not dieting or implying that I am getting thinner hahaha, but it's like, over at my aunt's place they would feed me a lot and when I come back, it's like, you feel tired of eating. And, over there, they eat a lot of mutton, which I do not quite fancy......

So I made a toast for myself and mum. One bread each, spread with cheesespread. And then I started on my personal statement for my university application. That was such a killer. I spent the whole day doing it, stopped for lunch and continued til dinner and finally finish it. I am sort of proud of it.

Haha, but I gotta go now. Because mum wants me to massage her, and then I gotta call Sufardi and start with Homework. Sighhhh.

I'm so busy.

I love you family. I miss them. Family. I didn't want to think about it. I didn't want to think about family. I was leaving in denial, like, no they're so near, and I am gonna see them so soon. But I miss family. Sabrina, Danial and Daddy and my maid also.

Loves.

The Underground

I had roti prata for breakfast today. And then watched more movies. And then showered. And then we left around 4pm. Headed back home by the underground.

I don't have time to write in detail. Spending valuable and precious time with family.

Love.

P.s. I miss Sufardi, you know.

Nike Court Tradition

We went to Walthamstow market today. We searched for Sabrina's Nike Shoes. I finally got her the Nike Court Tradition. It's white and blue.

Dadi and mummy went grocery shopping because they wanted to cook malay food because it's not easy to get malay food in London. They cooked Sotong and Asam Pedas and Sambal Goreng Tempeh. Haha.

We watched Hindi shows. They're very interesting. Spend time with family lorrr. Then sleep.

The Grandmother from Newcastle

I had one last class with Owen today. From 2.30 - 4.30pm.

I went back home to put my stuff, mum and I went out again to Walthamstow. We were gonna stay at Aunty Moshida's house for the weekend again. I'm so excited. Because I get to see my Dadi. Like, after 7 years?!?! I miss her.

Okay so we all reunited at 7pm, had dinner and it was really good to my grandmother and cousin again. She came all the way from Newcastle.

Okay, gotta go. Spend time with her!

Love

I miss Sufardi so much. I cried the other night. Because, I miss him terribly til it hurts. Are you sick and tired and reading.... I MISS SUFARDI? Haha, fcuk it. This is my blog. I can write whatever I want.

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I think and think and think.

I have 2 solutions:

1. It's April 2nd today. Mum will be here, til April 7th. I will be going to newcastle til April 12th. Then study study study study study til May 22nd, that's like... 4o days later of being alone. Though I would have my flat mate. So I won't be alone.

Well May 22nd, I WANT SUFARDI TO COME VISIT ME. Til like the 30th. That's my holiday. I want him to come. He doesn't have to pay for accomodation, food. He can stay at my place and I have lots of food at home. I'll take him all over London.

Baby.....come visit me and have a great holiday here. Be with me in London.

OR

2. Since he doesn't have to pay for accomodation and food, and Singapore passport allows you to come to UK for 6 months on a tourist VISA, I told him, since I'll be here for another 4 -5 months only. You could come. Stay with me, til I go home.

Stay with me for 5 months in the UK. Be with me. Quit your job. QUIT.

First thing he asked was, "who's gonna take care of my parents?"

I know this was an issue. So well yeah, I guess this is a big NO - NO. Sigh. But seriously, I wanted Sufardi to quit his job and stay with me in the UK for 5 months. I love him to the point, I am willing for him to move in with me here.

I hate, this situation. I wanna go cry now.

London Tour

Mum and I went for the.... "The Original Bus Tour" yesterday. We left home around 10am. And headed to Piccaddilly Circus and boarded the bus there. We passed by lots of places of attractions in London. Umms...

1. Buckingham Palace
2. Kensington Palace
3. St James Palace
4. Hyde Park
5. St James Park
6. Harrods
7. London Bridge
8. Tower of London
8. The London Eye
9. Trafalgar Square
10. Harvey Nichols
11. Greenwich

Yeah, there's more, but I can't possibly list down all, can't I?

We travelled all around London, took a cruise to Greenwich. Then headed back to London. Well, so we've practically seen the places of attraction of London.

I didn't text Sufardi the whole day because, my phone battery was really flat. I miss him. It's 7pm now, we bought dinner outside. Too tired to cook. But I hate eating outside food, it's very unhealthy. I was done with dinner and washing up by 8pm. And I showered. Haha, that took me an hour as well, because I had to wash this long long hair. Okay enough details about me showering. Sheesh. Kayyysss.

Umms, Then I studied from 9 to 11pm. 11pm is 6am in SG. TIME TO CALL SUFARDI!!!!!!!!! Excited nyerrrr.

I love him, so much, so so so much, I don't know how to do this for another 3 years. But I will, I will do my best. Because, I love you.

straight in a row

Wahhhtttt a hectic day today.

I woke up at 9am, got ready, had breakfast with mummy. And then headed to school. I was suppose to see Behdad at 11am, but, he was stuck in another class so he met at 11.30am. Haha, I thought, I was late, thank goodness, he delayed class.

Then Sandra called. I was suppose to see her at 4pm but she had something later, so she'll see me at 1pm later.

So then, I finished with him at 1pm. Sandra came 5 minutes after that, for QM. I studied QM after 1.5hours of Accounts. And then, I learned the new topic - Poisson. I tell you QM is damnnn interesting. Try solving this.

X~Poi(3.5)
P(X=2)
Solve.

That's Poisson.

I think you've seen binomial. And Normal Distribution is damn interesting.

Then finished with Sandra at 3pm, I met Owen at 3pm, 1.5 hours of Economics and I finally finish at 4.30pm.

ALL THREE SUBJECTS IN A DAY STRAIGHT IN A ROW. I am so proud of myself. Haha.

After school, I headed to Westfield at Shephard Bush. I went to WH Smith to get stationaries. And then I went to Waitrose for grocery shopping. Then headed home.

Back in SG, Sufardi went fishing with his brother and Sonic today. Love you baby. Again, so deep and sexy.

London's Time Changed

Do you know? London's time changed. Like I had to adjust my watch. For example, my watched displays, 10am right, it's actually 11am. So I had to re adjust it. And my clock as well.

Haha. Yup, weird.

Now, I am only 7 hours back! Used to be 8hours.

I met Behdad for accounting at 11am. Hehe, aced it. He said, I'm goooood baby. Til like 1am. Had lunch at Starbucks. Came back to meet Kaveh at 2pm regarding university applications. 3pm with Owen for Economics. Til like 5pm. Went grocery shopping. Spoke to baby on the phone, all the way!

Sexysexysexyhothothotlovelovelove.

Did my homework, studied. And blogging before I enjoy the beauty of my sleep.

Madam Tussauds

Mum and I woke up very early today because we needed to go back home in the morning together with Aunty. She sent us off before work. Hence, the early rise from the beauty sleep.

Took like 3 buses to get home, and then after putting our bags, we went out again.

BECAUSE,

WE WERE HEADING TO,

MADAM TUSSAUD'S WAX MUSSEUM.

I was so excited la. Like damn excited. So we headed to Oxford Street first to buy the tickets. Then headed to Marylebone Road, it's there. About 15 mins walk.

Okay, so we arrived right, everything okay, then inside, I think it was too crowded? Or maybe too tired from all the walk, mum, just felt unwell and puked at a corner of madam tussauds exit. HAHA.

The customer services officers were really helpful, brought mum to the first aid room and calmed her down. They then, extended the validation of our ticket to like, a year! So cool.

Like, I get to go MADAM TUSSAUD AGAIN!

Well, when I was there, I saw Justin Timberlake, David Beckham & Posh Spice, Brad Pitt & Angelina Jolie, Drew Barrymore, LL Cool J, Will Smith....... And many many more. Best part is, I get to go there again!!!

Yeyyyyy.

I love sexy Sufardi. I spoke to him again today, he's so sexy and I wanna bite him. And so, deep. I don't know where he gets his, whole, intelligence of simply living life. He should write a book. For people like me. The stupid, silly, clumsy, blur, SLENGER, type. Oh my.

Haha. Well, it's like, he can put it in a way to make me smarter, and think more, and think maturedly, without offending me you know. It's like, I feel like he is my life adviser. He's so smart.

East Side yo

I am at aunty Moshida's house. She stays at East London, Walthamstow. We're staying here for the weekend. She's my dad's cousin. She has 3 kids - Nazrin, Aslin and Najima. They're all very pretty and since they're being brought up here, they all have that English accent. They're all very pretty, I repeat. Haha.

Anyway, this morning, mum woke me up really early, saying that it's people's house, and we can't wake up late. I was kinda tired, because had a late night yesterday. Uncle Ghani, fetched us from my place and we only arrived there around midnight.

So, in the morning, I had those instant roti prata! My first roti prata in London. Haha. Then, we -mum, I, aunty moshida, aslin and najima, went shopping. Aslin and Najima had really good taste in clothes, and they're all VERYVERYVERY nice. Mygoodness... seriously, very friendly and very nice.

And Aunty paid for the stuff that I bought, a green cardigan, black top, hair accessories and I dunno, can't remember. We also took a lot of pictures at Walthamstow market.

And by the time we got home, we changed. We watched a new shahrukh khan movie, it was nice. I like. And then they played with my hair, said they love my hair bla3. They used a straightener and further straighten my hair. Haha. Then we watched the movie, Race. Another good movie. Really good. And they're very nice to the point, they gave me pillows, blankets and snacks during the movie, in case, I would be hungry/cold.

After that, I called Sufardi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Another great hour spent talking to such a lovely gentleman waiting for me back home. He's so smart. I think Sufardi talks all sense, sometimes, I think he is smarter than me in a way. Like, he's so deep.

Haha, nights.

LV Mummy

Classes starts at 11.30am today. Just QM.

Mum woke me up around 9am. By the time, I was up, mum already cooked and did the laundry and everything. She wakes up realllyyyy early, because our body is still used to SG timing. We talked about this tour thing, we wanted to go this weekend, like tour London.

Mum wants to go to Madam Tussaud's wax musuem, Harrods, Harvey Nichols, Oxford St, St James Palace, Buckingham Palace. I wanna go to football stadiums, I wanna go London Dungeon, London's birds eye view, the one like SG Flyers.

But I think I can go for that, with my friends, later on, cos I'll be here for like 5 months. Yeah.

And so I went to school, for QM with Sandra. She's really good. I love QM. I loveloveloveit. It's like MATHS. But you use, Binomials and Poissons and Normal Distribution.

Qns may look like this.

X~Bin(12, 0.5) P(x=5)
Please solve. Haha.

And then, I met mummy near my school. She said, she saw a FOX at my back yard. LOL. WTH. I don't know lah. Like, I believe her, I mean, it's my mum for goodness sake, she wouldn't be lying. She was bugging me to contact my landlord, like saying I paid rent, and why don't I worry about my safety and do I know that foxes, they eat people........

She said she was afraid to go home.

So just to make her feel better, I told her, I'll ask one of the boys at home to check it out, but I was kinda embarrass because, I think mummy was being very paranoid, because I think it was just a big dog or something. I told my flatmate, and he was like.....LOL, you're mum's so paranoid, no offence, but he'll check it out.

So anyways, we met and headed to Oxford Street, went to LV, and mummy bought her LV baggg. Latest collection, just came out last week, LV Bag from London. It is cheaper here. Plus since mummy is a tourist, she gets tax free! save so much.

And then I headed back to school, private lessons at 4pm with Sandra.

And then back home, it was damnnn cold today, I got home and my hands were all numb and freezing. Replied a few emails and texts and well, blogged. Gonna study. Might stay over at a cousin's place tonight, at east london....!

Haha, today Aisyah emailed me, saying whatever it is I must be back in SG for her wedding, I told her, okay I will. Then I decided to tease Sufardi, I text him..."Sayang, bila kita nak kahwin?" Haha.

I miss him, I do.

Aunty Bedahhhh

I woke up really early today, morning classes like at 9.30am - Econs.

I made toast for mummy and I for breakfast, got ready for school and left home around 9am. I was ready at 8.30am, but mummy wanted to follow me last minute so by the time I waited for her, I was already late, so we took a cab from home to school.

After all that rush (plus it was raining), Econs was cancelled. There were too little students. Some had excel exams and some just didn't come.

I met mum at the bagel factory cafe below my school and we headed to Oxford Street. We went to buy the London open tour bus to tour London this Saturday/Sunday! (Soooo exciting!)

We wanna go to Madam Tussaud's Wax Musuem and Harrods please! Sooo exciting.

Okay then we went to Marks & Spencer, because mummy wanna buy the jam there.

Then we headed back to Notting Hill Gate, to meet my aunt that came all the way from south london. I hugged her because I haven't seen her for like what, 8 years? But I had to go to school after that for QM, while she and mum, headed home.

QM was easy if you concentrate, and I must practice a whole lot. 2 hours passes by very fast and it's 1.30pm. I called mum and she was on the way, so I told her, I'll go have lunch first while waiting for her to get to Notting Hill.

They came, we took the bus to Oxford Street, went to all the departmental stores, bought stuff, went to their LV there, and boy, it's SO MUCH CHEAPER THAN SG!!

Mum saw a bag she loves, and is still in the process of thinking whether to buy it. I bought some shoe at Primark, mainly for school. And we headed home, it was getting dark. Aunty followed us back. Cos she wanted to have dinner near our place.

So we went home and changed and wash up a bit, and when we wanted to leave, someone rang the doorbell, and we were like, omg who's that, at this hour, and when we asked who's that, no one replied.

that happened twice, so mum got reallyyyyyyy afraid. because it was so suspicious, and then, she changed her mind. So aunty said it was okay and she took a cab back home. We ended up just having bread for dinner.

Todayyyy Sufardi text me, that he got home, and it was okay I didn't call him last night because I was tired, his work schedule and will update me more for the upcoming week. and...to remember, that he misses me a whole lot. and I will always BE IN HIS HEART, NURLISA, I love you Sayang... goodnight.

Heeeeeeesss, I am lucky and I am happy. SufardiSufardiSufardi.

Wednesday with me

Sufardi sayang, I miss you.

Okay today, I had tuna sandwich for breakfast. Mum had an egg sandwich made by me as well. We cooked spaghetti for lunch and I got ready for school.

It's really cold. I know I've mentioned that so many times. But I'll say it again, It's reallyyy cold.

Econs with Owen again at 2pm - 4pm.

Accounting with Behdad at 4pm was cancelled.

Went straight home after school. Did laundry, had dinner, did some necessary stuff and now blogging.

I know you hate my blog. Because all I talk about is, It's really cold and I miss Sufardi.

Flare my nose

We went to buy halal meat this morning. Like, beef and chicken at Shephard Bush Market.

Mum packed for me in different plastics so it was easier for me if I want to cook. Whatever, I'm not gonna talk about this, I really don't know how to talk about it.

Okay so anyways I had my first class today. Economics. It was okay. Somehow it seems easier compared to back then in MI. Like, MI, was totally BS, the teachers there weren't good enough. I've always hated that school.

Econs was okay. Really okay.

After that I had QM. Which I was totally lost. Though Sandra - the teacher, was really nice. They said, they'll give me make up lessons since I started school late. I saw Mr Kaveh and he asked how I was doing and everything. Very helpful.

After class, it was reallyyyyyy colddd. I called Sufardi on the way home. IT WAS REALLY COLD. REALLLLLLLYYYYYYYYY COLD.

I miss him so badly.

I have this habit... I tend to flare my nose. And Sufardi would say this, "jangan kembangkan hidung boleh tak?" Followed by a smile and a kiss on my nose.

I was doing that, and I suddenly heard his voice in my head, "jangan kembangkan hidung boleh tak?" followed by that comforting smile and a kiss on my nose. oh boy, I miss him.

I told him about it on the phone and he said, "mula-mula kembang hidung, lepas itu orang tegur, kembangkan lagi, suka kembang hidung. you notice or not baby I always like to kiss your nose..."

I MISS SUFARDI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I text him, "I miss you so much til it hurts."

He replied, "Sayang, no matter what, without me being there, you've gotta be strong and stay focus on your study. I know how you feel. What about me? It goes the same for me. I think of you every single bit. I feel abnormal without you. Sayang, I miss you soooo soooo sooo much tau... And I wanna let you know... I love you so much okay."

I think I am very lucky. Plus, you've really gotta hear his voice while on the phone. He sounds like such a darllinngggg.

Sufardi, I Sayyyannngg youuu.

Tesco

I get tired easily here you know. I sleep at 8pm and wake up at 5am. Earlyyy right.

I made breakfast - egg sandwich.

So today, mum and I went to school together with Nilufa and her aunt. We left home around 8.30am.

Once we arrived at DGC, I finally met up with Anna Willatt. She's well, very nice, and very very stylish. Mum came along cos she wanted to settle the school fees and all. I got my timetable and heyyy there is no class today because, there were exams, so they re-scheduled classes.

So mum and I went to have lunch at a kebab shop nearby. We were very hungry by then, we ordered like 1/4 pounders and 1/2 pounders, but we both couldn't finish it. Because they're so big and they gave a lot of fries. My goodness.... If I keep eating this everyday, I'll get fat. I told mum, we've gotta like....start cooking healthy food.

We went groceries shopping again, this time at TESCO! How cool, I get to shop at Tesco! I knowww Malaysia have... But I've always heard my FIT teacher mention about Tesco....... and now I get to shop at Tescooooo.

Tesco - supermarket. Haha, so you must be thinking, what the hell this girl, is excited of shopping at Tesco. -.-

Kkkkk then, we got home and cooked, sambal prawns, fried broccolli, carrots and cauliflower in oyster sauce and seafood fried rice. Nice meal. Healthy. So much healthier than outside food.

Woooo. I talked to Sufardi!! I AM SO HAPPY EACH TIME I HEAR HIS VOICE. HE'LL GO LIKE... eh hi sayang, omg the warmth and comfort in his voice. Each time I hear it, I know... everything is gonna be okay.

I am very lucky. Mana nak dapat, lelaki yang sanggup perempuan dia, selama 3 tahun... bukan senang, tapi demi cinta, dia sanggup sabar dan accept this and wait for me. I know he is true to me, because he reminds me himself, that he is right there in Singapore waiting for me.

I can't talk much, gtg. but dear world, I love Sufardi a lot.

Oxford Street

Mum and I finally met the girl staying in the same house as me. She's from Iran. Her name is Nilufa. She's really pretty.

I had a webcam session with my siblings this morning. They were in the afternoon though. After that, we went to Shephard's Bush to get an Oyster card. That's their ezlink card here. Had breakfast. AND AND AND HEADED TO OXFORD STREET.

Wow, the shops there. Mum and I went shopppinnnggg.

It's like the Orchard Road of SG, but wayyy cooler. Because there are sooo many shops. Their Topshop outlets are really huge, Zara, Marks & Spencer, Nike etc. Their LV designs are so gorgeous. And their Coach, and Gucci. It's seriously pretty okayyy.

We shopped at Primark, it's very affordable there. Bought things for everyone there. I reallyreallyreally wanna shop for Sufardi. But I was with mum, so it was kinda weird. But it's like a big departmental store, where, I would like to buy manymanymany things. And if you know, I loveeeeee shopping for men. Boys are lucky to have me. HAH! Nahhh, I'm just kidding. But seriously, I like money and I like spending it with or for my boyfriend. I like to pay to dine for good food with my boyfriend and make my boyfriend eat and get all fat. And I like buying my man a lot of things. God, I love shopping.

For my man. HAHA.

Okayy so then, we were carrying sooo many bags but we still took the bus. On the way back, we bought more groceries.

And, cooked and had dinner and slept. I don't know why. I still get very tired easily. And I've been here for like what, 3 days.... It feels like 3 weeks already.

Nights.

P.s. will upload picssss kkkk.

First day

Mum and I woke up early this morning.

She was really helpful. She unpacked for me, cleaned my room etc. We went out to get stuff for my room, - towels, bins, air fresherner, whatever I cant remember. It's still really cold when we left the house. So we need to bring our jackets along. We came back around noon. Had a short nap.

At 2pm, Mr. Kaveh - the course coordinator, came, showed me how to go to school, the route, where to take the bus, which bus to take, and stuff.

After all that, he dropped us off at a bigbigbig mall - Westfield. The biggest mall in Europe.

Shopped for stationaries and computer accessories. Had dinner at Del Aziz. Sooo, expensive laaa.
Everything here is so expensive. You can buy pencil lead for 5ocents in SG, but it cost GBP5. Eggs are like $2 in SG. Over here is, GBP2.6, so it's $6 SGD. Very very very expensive.

Took a bus back home and yeah, that's about it.

I called Sufardi today, I miss him.

SIN to LHR

HEYYYY People... I am blogging. From the UK. :))

But I am so tired. Because I just went through a 14 hours flight! It's damn crazy and tiring okay. Damnnn tiring. Like. 14 hours!

I travel Singapore Airlines of course. One of the best airlines in the world. Nice food, comfortable, all the latest movies. OMG, don't travel with budget airlines if you wanna travel far. You would so regret. SIA, is seriously the best.

We arrived airport around 11am. Check in, and stuff. Lee and Fate was there to send me off along with my family.

Hugs and tears........ I don't wanna talk.

Sufardi was suppose to send me off too! BUT fcukfcukfcuk, poor thing, his mum got admitted to the hospital this morning. So he couldn't make it. FCUK RIGHT. but nvm. I left SG crying. Kinda hoping it would be like the movies, where he would come running after me maybe even in the place, like he had to buy the cheapest ticket to anywhere but the fat,old,ugly lady at the counter would give him the most expensive and take such a long time. HAHA. But no, that didn't happen.


Okay so then, 14 hours flight. Finally, arrived. Picked up by the driver.

IT'S REALLY COLD HERE IN LONDON.

I'm leaving like sorta in a town house. I choose not to live at the college dorm because I want more privacy. So I'm staying at a private house, the owner, rents this house to students who studies in the UK. It has more privacy, and you can study more peacefully here.

So yeah, okay, did I mention my mum is here with me? I love her to bits and very grateful she's here. She's doing all the settling down for me. Like unpacking, cleaning the room, getting the toiletries, groceries. HAHA. Thank youuuu mummy. What would I do without you?!

Okay super jet lag. Bye.

Last Day in SG

Well, it's Thursday. Which means, 1 more day left in Singapore.

Sufardi came over this morning, say.... around 8am. The last day I get to spend with him. I met him downstairs for breakfast together for the last time. I had mee soto and he had lontong. And we went back to my place and fell asleep for a few hours. We woke up, had lunch and just spent time talking, laughing and teasing around.

He had to work at 8pm. So we left home at 6pm cos I wanted to have dessert - Ice Kachang downstairs. Yeah, kinda like the last time as well. Cos I won't be able to have it in the UK. It was really nice spending time.

Before he left, I hugged him really really really tight. And he said, "don't worry, we'll hug again tmr." I had this feeling that something just was not right. So I just continued hugging him even more tightly.

And so he left, and I went back home. Watched American Idol while packing. Pack and pack and pack.

My family and I went to meet my relatives and supper at lau pa sat. I've always wanted to go there with Sufardi, but well, no time. :/

So then, went back home, discussed a few things with my parents and now blogging. Okay, this will be the last time I would blog in Singapore.

Nights people, See you in London. HAH! No.

I woke up very early today. My parents brought me to CitiBank to apply a credit card for me at Tiong Bahru Plaza. And then, we went back to the office for mum to finish up her work. And then went for lunch and then to VIVO to buy winter wear clothes. And then went back home, and packed and packed. And watched AMI8.

I went for dinner with family at Eatzy Restaurant, (Jack's place subsidary of the halal restaurant.) It was Danial's birthday.

Went to sleep. Tired.

Definitely, going.

On a bright Tuesday morning, (HAH, something you would use in secondary school) it was suddenly decided that I AM GOING TO London, they booked the air ticket and stuff and yes, I am definitely going London. After all that, I karaoke-d. Like, turned on the VCDs and sang songs. Tried calling the boyfriend but he wasn't answering because he was still sleeping.


I was bored. So I left home, and headed towards my boyfriend place. I forgot to inform him that I left the house, and he called me halfway and when he found out I left the house without informing him, he wasn't that please. So I apologised.


It was such a hot day, so I took a cab from Jurong East MRT to Teban Gardens. It was like around 5 plus, and I passed him a 10 dollars note, and the change returned back to me was all coins. Bloody hell.


I finally reached his mum's shop and waited there for him. After awhile, he came down. I said goodbye to his aunt and have his mum a hug. Wow, that's the first.


So we took 143 and headed to town. The journey was like about an hour and a half. We alighted somewhere near Far East because I wanted to eat the chicken rice at Cahaya.

After dinner, we headed down to Shaw House and went to catch Dragonball the movie. It was okayyy, it was, 5 out of 10 according to Sufardi.

We went home after that because I have a thousand things to do. I AM GOING LONDON!

Sufardi and I had our happy moments, today is our monthsaryyyy!!

MAN U LOST LA. YES!

Since I was up reading the book last night til 3am, I woke up very late around noon. Mum wanted to go shopping.

So got dress, we went shopping. Things I bought - umms, MAC Eyeliner, a pair of sandals, a pair of white heels, karaoke vcds. ((:

HAHA. I wanna sing my hearts out ah when I come back. Plus got the song Apologise. I knowww it's Sufardi's favourite song! But I don't get to shop for Sufardi laaa. Because I went last minute, so I didn't bring cash to convert la. So bodohh, feel like buying ciggs. HAH. :D

Anyywayys, after that we went back to Abang's house at Hampshire and then he bought us all dresses. So yeah, we get to choose. And then, I continued reading the book, in Abang's room, and Abang said, don't miss him kayyy while he is sleeping. HAHA, millionaire jokes around. How nice. I don't know la I feel like...wow, I'm so close to a rich rich rich rich guy.

Money, money, money, it's so funny, in a rich man's worlddd....

kkkk then, got ready to go abang sham's house which is just across the street, but I rode the Bentley there. (: umms, then my nephew, was being circumcised today, so, umms, we had mini prayers, dinner and then some went shopping and and and and, the rest, WATCHED THE MAN U VS LIVERPOOL GAME!!

HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.

SWEET LA OKAY.

MAN U GOT THRASHED AT THEIR OWN HOME GROUND. 4-1. BODOH LA MAN U. Now, I don't even mind if they win the whole league, whatever. They lost twice to Liverpool this season. And bloody hell, second time, THRASHED!

HAHAHAHAHHAHA. I AM THINKING OF ALL MY FRIENDS WHO ARE SUPPORTERS OF MAN U. OMG THE LOOK ON THEIR FACE. BODOHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I'M SO HAPPY SIALLLLSSSSSSS.

Ahh, now I'm pissed at something, see, freaking moodswing, you don't wanna be Sufardi, it's hell being with me. Vice versaaaaaaaaa. HAHA. So that's why we're meant to be together, so beetches like you don't try to act as if, you can fcuking click with him and talk behind his back. Hypocrite. Argh! PISSED.

FCUK.

10 Habits of a Millionaire

Yesterday, I read a very very very good book:

10 Habits of a Millionaire.

10. Millionaires think Long - term.

9. Millionaires talk about Ideas.

8. Millionaires embraces change.

7. Millionaires take calculated risks.

6. Millionaires continually learn and grow.

5. Millionaires work for profits.

4. Millionaires believe they must be generous.

3. Millionaires have multiple sources of income.

2. Millionaires focus on increasing their net worth.

1. Millionaires ask themselves empowering questions.

This is a very good book. Though, I'm not a millionaire, but it is a veryveryveryvery good book. I strongly encourage and urge you to read. Remember, millionaires, they learn and grow, means, they read and read to learn and therefore, GROW.

And plus, I got it from my Millionaire cousin okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. The one that owns the Bentley and earns millions per month.

SO READ!

Kris and Adam

Sufardi came back to my place after work this morning. I was still sleepy so I continued sleeping while hotstuff played games on my laptop. Soon after, he fell asleep as well.

I woke up around noon, to find that he is still sleeping. Well, yeah, I think, he just fell asleep la. Like around 11am?

Uh-huh, so I spent my afternoon watching tv; waiting for him to wake up. I was watching repeats of American Idol Season 8. And boyyy, I think Kris Allen is hotstuff, like, fcuking hotstuff kayyy. But Sufardi is hotterhotterhotter stuff! Haha.. okayyy, but I think Adam Lambert's performance was simply THE BOMB man. He looked as if he so comfortable on stage like he was guest performance on the show instead of being a participant. I don't like Megan because I think she dances very weirdly and clumsyly. And I think Allison is very gatal. Wahtever kayyy. I don't think, my opinion matters in any way. My two favourites are Danny Gokey and Adam Lambert. In any case that they ever ever ever get voted out, the judges better use their veto man. I mean, hopefully they would maintain/improve on their performance.

I woke Sufardi up around 5pm, we got ready and had dinner at Delifrance before he head to work. Aahhh once again, GOOD FOOD. And then he went off to work and I went to tuition. I wanted to go the Isetan's Private Sale but I had TUITION! After that, I met mum for dinner at Northpoint and headed home around 10pm.

I miss Sufardi.

His teases

Yesterday, Sufardi stayed over my place.

He was sorta awoken at 5 in the morning, and he managed to say this, "make sure there's food when I wake up, I'm hungry."

I grinnn a whole lot each time that thought enters my mind. He's so cute and funny.

Okayyy so then I woke up earlier than him and I had my breakfast. I cooked him a meal, like, 2 burger patties, fries and salad. I made a burger sandwich for him with one of the burger patties, with some tomatoes, mayo, cheese and lettuce. And fries at the side. Breakfast in bed.

We got ready and he accompanied me to Tampines Mall. Okay, sidetrack, you know what I notice? When it comes to my boyfriend, I realise, I'm damnn 'manja.' When I see my boyfriend, I would change into some kid you know, running towards her daddy. Well not that I see him as my Daddy, though he does have a fatherly figure, so anyways, I just feel like happy and tingly that I would go like....sayyyaannngggg.

I always cover my face on his chest or arms. Those are my two favourite spots for my face. BUT my boyfriend on the other hand, always so grumpy. Like. So fierce. At times, soooo hard to smile. But I like, I would tease and tease and tease him until a smile would eventually appear. It's his personality la. But I find it damn interesting and mysterious.

I guesss you would only know oif you were to be in a relationship like this.

Back to my story, yes he accompanied me. Hehe, sweet teases, funny funny conversations. Once, he said something... then... i was pretty pissed... I can't remember though what it was.

So I folded my arms, put on a huge frown and walked a few feet away towards a corner. You know what he did....

He came over to me, and whispered in my ears, "so kirakan, sekarang you merajuk relax one corner abeh I kena pujuk eh?" With the most cutest, silly, teasing, cheekiest look ever!

Then, I'm also like...very slenger... after that statement, I actually, thought... omg yeah. Then... I laughed.. See... I can't stay mad at him for long.

After Tampines, we went back to Yishun and he took a train back to Jurong East and me to, Sembawang. I went tuition and he headed home to change for work.

Later at night, he said, he missed me and wants to come back home to my place again tomorrow morning. ((: Happyyy laaa I...

My life would suck without you Sufardi... I love you sangatsangat.

Marley & Me

Sufardi came over at 4am last night. Because, he fell asleep after he got home. Well he hasn't had his fair share of sleep. So I forced myself to sleep as well.

And then at 4am he called me, apologising, because we were suppose to meet earlier but he overslept. For the ver first time, I said, no, honey, I'm too tired.

HAHA.

He was pretty damn pissed. I felt bad, so I asked him to come over. We drove around and I came back home at 6am. He told me we'll meet again around noon. (:

At 10am, I think he texted me but I didn't reply. And he called my house. My sister came rushing to the room, "Kaklisa, wake up there is some Chinese guy calling you!"

HAHA. Usually when someone tells you that, you instantly....WAKE UP, and clear your throat and try your best to sound like you were awake and fresh the whole time. But I knew... I knew who's calling. And when I answered, I put on my most sleepiest voice ever.

And my boyfriend, "Hi, I'm calling from St James Power Station....." Mangkuk!

I smiled at that moment. Haha, Seriously, THAT. made. me. smile. Entahhh la... it puts a smile and it cheers me up laa... and made my dayyyy.

We got ready and drove Sabrina to Dover MRT to check out her laptops. And we went to have lunch at Subway at Dhoby Ghaut. Sayang had to foot long you know. And he wasn't even full. And then we headed back home.

At home, baby played the internet. And said something to upset me. And...

I have a problem, I CRY A LOT. Not that I am sensitive, but it's when someone upsets me over something, and that something would upset anyone, everyone, different people would react to different situations in different ways right?

Like, if someone were to call you, a JERK, (for example) Person A would go, - It takes one to know one? Person B would go - well, thank you. Person C- would just smile and walk away. Person D would - CRY.

HAHA, I am person D. I cry and cry and cry everytime I'm hurt. Once Praba said, you cry too much I feel like at times, I don't pity you anymore. -.-

So anyways, during that moment right, I was expecting, all those predictable stuff like, my boyfriend to console me, and say stuff like, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have this that, I would stay by your side, or like....come here, and then kisses my forehead, everything would remain very serious and sad.

But Sufardi, wahhhttt the hell. He laughs you know. Like, when I'm crying he would laugh!! I WAS REALLY PISSED at first. But what the hell, he laughs, because he teases me, and make real corny and lame jokes, and fcuk it cheered me up. OKAYYY I CAN'T EXPLAIN. BUT!!!! I was amazed on how, different this guy's approach on cheering LISA up 101.

Unpredictable. It's just different. It's funny. It's good. It wasn't like the usual console method. Interesting.

He's different, he's interesting, he's funny, he knows me so well, and he was really patient. Like I was crying and whining yet he still had a smile on his face. Sufardi, what's next eyyyyyyy...

And then we went out to go have dinner at Northpoint's foodcourt, the famous Indian stall. Quite expensive but nice la. And then we walked around and went to watch movies, - Marley & Me. Oh boy, marriage life with kids are so difficult.

Okayyy, I'm done blogging. Sufardi is staying over. And I think I wanna sleep, I'll just let him play the computer after this. Goodnight lovelys.

Fishing

Finally Sufardi woke up last night. AND DIDN'T GO TO WORK BECAUSE HE OVERSLEPT. Bestttnyyeerrr. HAHA, I jump for joys for days that my boyfriend doesn't go to work and spends it with me.

We had supper at D'Rubinah off Sembawang Road. We drove around after that. And then, at 6am, I went back home. It was for me to go sleep. Sufardi was going fishing with Sonic after that. So I fell asleep rightaway.

And at 2pm, he texted me. What are you doing? HAHA, I am so touch that even when he is with his friends, FISHING, yeah, okay it's not much of a busy activity but still he's with his friends, he still manages to find time to text me. UNLIKE MY TWO previous. Sufardi, even busy at work, would text me you know.

Okay, then. He said, he wanted to pick me up. Hehe. Sweet right. So he drove all the way from Pasir Ris to Yishun and picked me. He was wet all over because it was raining while fishing so we went back to Teban for him to have a change of clothes. And then to Tampines Mall and had lunch at Swensons. Yummy.

And then. We went to Pasir Ris for some fishing. Went back home. Sufardi's coming later again! (:

Dear World,

I am happy.

Dear Sufardi,

You are the reason why I am happy.

Sufardi Saaayyyyaaannngggg

I smile a lot, A WHOLE LOT, when I think of the first time I met Sufardi.

I cringe and cover my face when I think of what I did to Sufardi the first night we met. HAHA, malu seyyyy.

I blush when I remember the first time Sufardi said I love you.

I grin when I think of when Sufardi kisses my hand and my forehead.

I get that magical feeling when I think of how we danced under the stars that one night.

I get very touch when I think of how Sufardi proposed to me.

I remember our first kiss and all our other first.

I feel so damn bloody special when I'm being introduced as his fiance/wife.

I am serious about Sufardi.

I love Sufardi.

So mind your words when it comes to talking about him.

Get to know the...

You know, back then, I was reading one of the issues of the CLEO magazine. It was an article titled, PARTY LIKE A VIP.

And one way to do it according to them was.... Get to know the bouncer. HAHA.

I swear though, me getting to know Sufardi, I did not intend to get all these priviledges. Honestly, I didn't even want to fall in love. Especially with a bouncer, Like what if I cannot cope? But what to do? He was just too handsome, too cute, too charming and was able to give me all the magical feeling. Dah, terjatuh cinta, I accidently fell in love. And sometimes, I feel like the luckiest girl alive.

Besides, I was already in love, then I read that article. At first, I have to admit I felt kinda special. I mean, of course la, like to get to enter clubs for free and free drinks. But as time passed by, it's like nothing. Back then, I used to BUY clothes for clubbing, do my hair, put on thick make up. Like, CLUBS are a big deal you know.

Now, I walk in there without make up. My hair would be tied in one pony tail. I would wear t shirt and jeans and slippers. I used to queue for an hour to enter a club just to dance, party and get drunk. Now, I walk in like nobody's business, and then, not to dance or party or get drunk, but to.... -.- GO TOILET. -.-

HAHA.

Who the hell goes to a club, just to......go toilet.....

I would eat cheeseburger, drink bourbon coke, charge my handphone and watch soccer over there. Recently, I would go up to Mono and asked Ming Choon for green tea. HAHA. And if one of the karaoke's room is empty, I would sit inside on the big, comfortable sofabed, and wait for Sufardi there. I would be able to sing and karaoke alone.......... But still it was one way to kill time.

Honestly, I'm bored of clubbing. I used to think St James, was a big deal you know. I party like every week. I would pay for cover charge and drinks. Cos I had a lot of cash back then when I was single. So all my cash, are for hot dresses, hair, cover charges and drinks til I get drunk. I was so hardcore back then. Now, I've changed.

To a more decent young lady, due to Sufardi. Haha, (: that's a good thing.

These days when I go to clubs, it's merely just to be near Sufardi, to be at the same building, to go home with him. I don't go with the main intention, to seriously, club and party and dance and get drunk like I used to. All I want is to be very near Sufardi. That's all. Because, I love him so much.

Kellyyyyyy

I woke up feeling all lazy.

My friend begged me to follow her to this career thing at Suntec. And she's 23 and she's dating a 17 year old................umms....okay....merepekzzz sakzzz.. Sorry I really had to say that.

Anyways, I met Kelly and Tri after that at Suntec as well. We took a cab to St James because we were planning to have dinner at Station Kitchen. I met my boyfriend. Since he works there, we were able to get the staff discount. He said, when you ask for the bill, just mention you are the CSO's wife. HAHA. I told this to Kelly and Tri and they were like, WOW, Mrs Sufardi. They teased me a lot and said how lucky I am. And it's good that he is very serious with me.

Kelly brought someone for dinner. Angus - he's a decent chap from the UK. He was very nice and funny. And Kelly looked as if she was really hitting it off with him. After dinner we went to Dragonfly and got us all free entry. Once again, thanks baby. He's the sweetest.

He actually allowed me to stay the whole night. But he didn't allow me to drink. So I didn't. It's like good enough he allowed me, so, don't take advantage of it. He already said, DON'T DRINK. So I didn't drink.

We went to Movida and had a few dance. After everything, Kelly left with Angus. Tri left too after awhile. I went to Mono, I had a few drinks. GREEN TEA only. HAHA, And had some chicken and fries, and sang a few songs in the Karaoke room. I was very tired. But I was happy. Happy I was near Sufardi. In the same building as Sufardi. Get to meet Sufardi. Get to go home with Sufardi.

Later on, he picked me up in his car. He was wearing his CD uniform because he had to go back to camp later on. Oh boy, was it tight. I sure wanted to rip it off him man. I change my mind. Firemen are the hottest. They deal with fire, they're the hottest. Actually I've always thought men in uniform were hot, but thing is, usually firemen, they like teasing girls, that's why I've always not fancied them. But I fancy my personal, firemen, bouncer, boyfriend. I'm so lucky.

Slumdog Millionaire

Yesterdayyyy Sufardi ended work at 3am. And he said he wanted to meet me. He arrived at 4am. And we drove around in his car.

I woke up really late today at 4am. Lazed around. And was talking to Sabrina, and we were like... "wanna go watch movie?"

We went to watch Slumdog Millionaire. GOOD GOOD GOOD Movie. Seriously Good movie. I liked it a lot. A whole lot.

And then we walked around Northpoint after that, looked at winter clothes and jeans.

Omg I almost forgot my mum flew to KL this morning with my aunt.

makcik siput nieeeeee

I woke up at 7am to follow my parents to work. I needed to get some documents and I headed to the UK VISA Application Centre. I wanted to pass them some additional documents. But they wouldn't accept it.

I was ooberly sad. I have a feeling my VISA would be rejected. Sigh.

And so I called my aunt that is staying at Jurong West. I went to her place. And she brought me out to shopping at Metro. I bought 3 tops and 3 pants for myself. And shirts for Sabrina.

We headed back to her place again. I fell asleep for awhile. Oh boy, I sure needed that short nap. And then I got ready because I had dinner plans with my girls from MDIS.

First, we picked up my uncle from CDA and then she sent me all the way to Vivo. It's an irony Farhanah picked Vivo as our dinner venue because, I get to be very near Sufardi. (:

Since I was carrying too many shopping bags, I went to St James to put my stuff first in the locker. So I could walk without having to worry about my bags. Otherwise I will be like, makcik Siput again.

I passed by Boiler, and I bumped into Gene. He was working at Tiger Live. Said hello and went to meet my friends. Farhanah, Pretty and Diyana at Vivo and we had dinner at Breeks. It was nice just hanging out. Pretty and I had the club sandwich, F had the lasagna and D had the salmon pocket toast.

Pretty passed me some chocolates as a gift! Farhanah passed me a bear, with a mug inside and a keychain!! AWFULLY SWEET of them. That's like my going away gift. SO SWEET. I love them.

So then I was carrying 2 extra bags. And when I came back to St James, I met my boyfriend for awhile. And I took the rest of my stuff. My boyfriend himself called me makcik siput. HAHA. Siak jerrr. Hahahahhahahaha.

But he was very sweet like tryin` to put everything together so I would have to carry less bags.

I was so tired on the way back home.

I am Serious

Yesterday, Sufardi picked me up around 2am. We went for supper at Northpoint's Mcdonald. After supper we drove around Yishun. He sent me back home around 6am.

I woke up around 10am to go submit my VISA application again. It took such a long time. And I was suppose to meet kelly for lunch but I couldn't because it was really draggy. Fcuken annoying. I had to cancel on Kelly. Sorry Kels.

After that, I met the girls for tea. Lee and Fate I mean. But Fate said she was hungry so we went to eat at Cahaya at Far East. HAHA. We were talking about the whole 'malay' thing. And then after awhile, THEN, I realise, SHITT, I so wasn't aware of my environment.
:/

Haha. So we decided to make a move. To McCafe at Shaw Towers. Yeah, there, we had our usual tea and chocolate drinks. Just hanging out and sharing our stories about each other's life. Lee - Farkhan, Fate - Iman and Lis - Sufardi.

Haha. Everyone has someone now. Back then, everyone was single or unsure about their love. Now, Lee says she's willing to spend the rest of her life with Farkhan. And Fate, has someone to love and hold.

And Lis? You ask. Well, Lis loves Sufardi. And, no one can have Sufardi. And Lis, has already made up her mind, that this would be IT for her. Just like how Lee has made up her mind too. So YES, I am serious about Sufardi okay. Fcuk you if you want him.

I'll bang my head

Yesterday, I fell asleep at 4 plus. Pretty late huh. And I woke up at 9am. I went to Insworld to fill in VISA stuff, and then went to the UK Visa Application Centre to apply for my VISA. There were so many problems. Sighhh.

After that, I went for lunch at Subway at Funan IT Mall. And then I went to tuition. I was so tired by then. And I felt so damn bloody stressed up regarding my VISA. I seriously, almost bang my head to the wall.

I came home early on Monday because I just had no mood. Sufardi was sleeping til like almost midnight. But he's coming over to meet me tonight for supper. It's just a very stressful day. And I seriously don't feel like talking much.

4th Floor

Today I woke up around noon. Mummy was bugging me to pack my luggage. And so I cleared my wardrobe and brought a whole lot of stuff. But still, I feel like it wouldn't be enough. Its like almost full already. I have not yet packed my books and toiletries. Just clothes. Or maybe I would not pack as many? I don't know.

After like 3 hours of packing, I got ready to meet Sufardi at Vivo. We planned to meet at 6pm. I arrived there on time, in fact earlier, but he was late. I walked around, I wasn't mad. I know he's tired. I know. I understand. (:

In fact, while walking around, I pitied him for working so hard and being so tired, I saw the cutest cookie ever. It was soooo damn adorable. I had to buy it. It was a heart shaped one, we lots of rainbow toppings and a cute smile on it. I so don't know how to describe. It was just so adorable.

He arrived just in time for work which is at 7pm. And we couldn't have dinner together! :/

He planned to have dinner with me at Station Kitchen but unfortunately, some baby was celebrating it's birthday there.

I passed him the cutest cookie, and he laughed out loud as well. We both agreed it was damnnn cute sangat sangat.

My boyfriend said he needed to go punch in and get himself ready for work but he didn't want me to leave first, so I sat down at one of the seats inside Dragonfly. He got me coke from the bar - something to drink while waiting.

We hung out for awhile and then he said he was hungry. So I offered to buy food for him at Vivo. I was carrying too many things. And seriously, I felt like makcik siput siak. I always feel like that, I always carry too many things, Like makcik Siput.

Haha, then my boyfriend brought me upstairs to the 4th floor and we had our dinner there. I've never been upstairs. Never ever ever thought in my life that I would be able to go up to the 4th floor. Never ever thought of St James's 4th floor. And today I went upstairs. I told my friend about it, and she was like, "YOU WENT UP TO 4TH FLOOR?" Special siak you.

I replied, "actually, there was nothing much."

And supposedly, I wasn't allowed to la. But there was no place to go have dinner. So Sufardi kinda had no choice but to bring me there. But we ate very fast.

He went for a smoke after that, and all that hugs and kisses and teases and laughter, and I left. I feel happy you know.

Thanks baby. I love you.

Late Night

It’s late at night as I lie in bed in the blue glow of the television set. I have a clicker in my hand, the remote control, and I go from 1 to 97, scrolling through the channels. I find nothing that warrants my attention, nothing that amuses me, so I scroll up again, channel by channel, from bottom to top. But already I’ve given it the honor of going from 1 to 97, and already I’ve found nothing. This vast, sophisticated technology and…nothing. It’s given me not one smidgen of pleasure. It’s informed me of nothing beyond my own ignorance and my own frailties.

But then I have the audacity to go up again! And what do I find? Nothing, of course. So at last, filled with loathing and self- disgust, I punch the damn TV off and throw the clicker across the room, muttering to myself, “What am I doing with my time?”

It’s not as if I’m without other resources or material comforts, you follow? I’ve been very fortunate in life, and as I lie in my bed, I’m surrounded by beautiful things. Treasured books and art objects, photographs and mementos, lovely gardens on the balcony. After many years in this particular business in the particular town, I have a rich network of friends, some only a few steps away, dozen of others whom I could reach on the phone within seconds.

So what am I doing with my time?

Steeped in this foul, self-critical mood I lie back and close my eyes, trying to empty my head of all thought. It’s late, time to sleep, so I determine to focus on that empty space in my consciousness and try to drift off. But images begin to come to me, infiltrating that darkness. Soft, sensuous images of a time very early in my life when things were so much simpler, when my options for entertainment couldn’t be counted on a scale from 1 to 97.

At 4.30pm after my last call to Sufardi, I finally fell asleep.

Explanations

I woke up at 10am this morning. I kinda liked waking up early. Maybe it's cos I don't need to rush and I won't be late.

So I took my time and met Ariffah at 1pm. It was nice seeing her after such a longgg time. We met at Golden Village and bought movie tickets - He's just not that into you. We had lunch before our movie at Burger King. Ariffah's treat. Since, I am leaving. We caught up, and shared everything.

I shared how, I got cheated on my Praba. How I met Ashik and things didn't work out. How I hated love, and never wanted to fall in love again and never believed in love but somehow my handsome boyfriend appeared in my life and managed to crawl his way through my heart and won it.

How I met Sufardi, How I fell in love with Sufardi, How Sufardi chased after me, How Sufardi first proposed to me to be his girlfriend at Esplanade and How my dating days with Sufardi were.

Ariffah said, (with a disgusted face) no offence, but both your previous ex-es were so ugly. This one....CUTEEEE.

Haha. So far everyone finds Sufardi cute. That's the problem when you date a cute guy. They turn heads. They attract attention. And now that I am leaving....................... You all know I got cheated on............... I've got trust issues.

Like, back then, I didn't care. I didn't care when girls look at my boyfriends, I would never grab or hold them just to show that I'm his girlfriend. My mindset - look all you want, he's next to me. Not you.

And probably I trusted the guys I date so much, like maybe yeah, they enjoy the attention but they would never smile or wink to other girls behind my back.

But when I was like that, all that trust and love for Praba. That fcuking Sarah used to be so close to him in front of me, clearly disrespecting the fact that I was his girlfriend. I still wouldn't bother. My mindset - flirt all you want, he would never bother and would still love me. All that trust and all that confidence. And yet, Praba cheated on me with Sarah.

But hey, once when I was with Praba and some girl told me she was attracted to him, oh boy that girl got hell from me. Even Sarah got hell from me. She's still so afraid of me. She would fret like hell if she thought it was me on the streets. HAH. So seriously, don't mess with the person I'm dating. SG or UK. I tell you, you don't wanna see that side of me.

When I date someone, I make sure this guy is really worth it and won't do anything behind my back. Like, this guy would not be nonsense. Like, he wouldn't be so gatal. I analyze first.

I sure do analyze them.

So yes, with Sufardi, well, honestly? He has done a few things that got me all suspicious and lost trust in him. And goodness, sometimes he's like caught red-handed you know, but here's the thing, if you know him well enough, you listen to his explanation, you would know whether it's the truth or not.

Sometimes, I know he ain't telling the truth, little little white lies that doesn't hurt the relationship. It's okay. But when he's caught with something serious, I hear his explanation, sometimes it's a whole load of crap, seriously. But it's him you know, it's Sufardi. Like, yeah Sufardi is the type that is like this that this that.

You've gotta know him well. And in my case, this isn't complaining about Sufardi or showing you all his bad points. Mind you, his imperfections and flaws are nothing compared to his care, concern and endless love for me. This is just teling you, nobody's perfect and they make mistakes and if you know someone well, you will go, it's okay, he's like that, I understand. At the end of the day, he's not a bad guy.

I choose to love Sufardi, and I have to accept him the way he is. And the way he is? Just the way I like it with lots of sugar on top.

Role Model

Before I went to sleep last night, I asked Dalia out again tomorrow. Her boyfriend is in camp and probably busy and her friends might not be coming over. And I really wanted to catch a movie. I mean, initially, I asked Sufardi. But he said he starts work at 6pm, so yeah it would be very tiring and rushing for him.

So I asked Dalia. And she said okay. Cos she needs to get shoes for work as well.I met her at 1pm. And we headed to Bugis to get her shoes. And then to Sim Lim to get my laptop battery. And then took a bus to Vivo to watch movies there and check out winter clothes. We bought tickets first at GV for the movie Role Model. It was funny la...

And then we had lunch at LJS again. HAHA. And walked around to search for my winter clothes.

Movie ended around 7pm and we headed to Dragonfly to meet my boyfriend. We were on the way to the toilet and I bumped into my boyfriend. I was sooooooooooooo happyyyyyyyyyyy. I was like Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. OMG. I miss him. My sexy boyfriend. Haha.

I said, lemme go toilet first I'll talk to you later when I'm done.

So after everything, I introduced Dalia to him and I talked to him for awhile and left. We headed to Vivo again and walked around and finally I saw nice jackets at ZARA. Yes, so lovely. Looked up a lovely restaurant that just opened up at Vivo and I saw a necklace I wanna buyyyy.

Dalia bought some work related stuff and then we had dinner at Subway and headed home. I'm tired. Super tired. I watched American Idol, filled in the Visa application, checked it. And blog. Now, I'm ending it and I'm going to sleep.

Boy, I do babble a lot.Wait. Movies I want to catch.

- He's just not that into you
- The Pink Panther 2
- New In Town
- Marley and Me
- Slumdog Millionaire

Daliaaaaaaaaaa

Today, Ms Tan is finally back in SG. She called at 10am saying she has received my Acceptance letter and we should fill in my VISA application rightaway. So I went down to Insworld and did all the neccessary.

After that, met Dalia at Little India and we headed to Dhoby Ghaut and had lunch at LJS. Caught up on our lives. Especially our love lives. Because, the last time we met, we were single. Now, we're both attached.

I wasn't feeling well. But I had to go over to my aunt's place to collect some documents regarding my VISA left at her place. So I headed to Jurong West. I was so sick in the train til someone actually gave up his seat for me. HAHA.I met my aunt and we picked up my uncle at the Civil Defence Academy, he works as some Enchik there and then she drove me home. I just knocked out that night. Super tired. I love Sufardi by the way. Hehe.

Boring but Impressive

Sufardi baby stayed over last night. We watched TV. As in, HE - watches AXN, National Geographic and Discovery Channel. I think that's impressive. HAHA. Because, I myself don't watch all these channels. Though, my father always stresses at the fact that, these channels are good.

So, good. So, I hope when Sufardi, finally meet my parents, and they are comfortable with him being at home, and he turns on the TV when he arrives, he would turn it on, to an impressive channel? HAHA.

Impressive channel? WTH. This is the name of these boring channels. Impressive channels. It attracts my parents and I.

My parents and I are attracted to these impressive channels because they are boring. -.-

Okay, seriously I don't know what the hell I am babbling about. -.- (I like giving that look) I tend to stop halfway during a conversation and whisper to my friends, "eh did I sound very makcik? Or eh when I gave you that look, did I looked very slenger?" Self concious. Yeah, I'm very self conscious. Like, at times when I put in effort on myself, and at a well-known enviroinment, I have to admit, I worry about myself too much.

Okayyyy WTH so, back to...umms... wait lemme check. OH OKAY. He was watching AXN. Uhh, and we went upstairs, cos I was realllyyy damn bloody tired. He turned on my laptop and played youtube and watched a whole lot of videos while I fell asleep.

The next day, we woke up around 3pm. We both got ready because he needed to go work and I needed to go tuition.

He told me, I was snoring last night and waking up constantly to check up on him. And, haha, yes, well, I was very very very tired last night. I knew I would snore. And I remember waking up constantly because I felt bad that he stayed over but I slept first.

Anyways, we went to Cavana for I dunno actually, LUNCH OR DINNER, IT WAS AT 5PM. Uh-huh. It was nice and funny there. Really, he was being awfully sweet. It was his treat by the way. And after all that smiles, laughter, teases, hugs and kisses, I felt happy.

So I made my way to tuition with a great smile on my face and a perfect glow on my skin. I'm not pregnant la. Just happy. -,-

After tuition, I met Deeyah. We had dinner at KFC. I didn't want to eat. But she forced me to. It was her treat! Very sweet of herrrr. I have not spent much time with her sakzzz. I feel like I need to go out more with her especially.

We talked, caught up. Took a train to Yishun, walked her to Burker King where she needed to meet another friend to study. That sure wasn't enough man. I need to see more of her. Okay I think. I am gonna stop here. Because I am tired.

Sufardi is hot. Mmwahhh!

Departure

We woke up around 9am this morning. I was excited to go for breakfast. I likeeee hotel's breakfast. I really like.And then Daddy called. Mood killer. Seriously moodkiller. He called all the way from Bangkok, asking me to settle stuff about my trip to the UK. Sighhh. It was really urgent to the point I needed to go the business centre and use their internet. :/

We lazed around the hotel til check out time. And then we packed and left. I had a nice time with him. I mean I don't describe to you in details but seriously, we had a lovely time. And then we took a cab to some shopping centre and had our lunch and headed back to SG. We went back to his place so he could leave his stuff at home. And then we headed back to my place.

We kinda had a misunderstanding over a small matter. I don't know about him. But I feel stupid. Fighting over that small matter. Do you feel stupid? Hah. What do you know, you're not in the relationship, you don't have power. Unlike certain relationships where, a third party has power over another couple's relationship. So you're not in the relationship right, so you don't have the power to make or break Sufardi and I, that's up to us to be together or separate, not yours. You. Don't. Have. The. Power. But unlike Fatin and Reza's relationship, Reza wouldn't get back together with Fatin, unless I apologise. FOR SOMETHING I DID NOT DO WRONG. Sheesh. So gay, I didn't know my apology meant a lot to Reza, I guess he thinks I'm so special. I'm so powerful. If I didn't apologise, Fatin and Reza would break up. But hey, I did. FOR SOMETHING I DID NOT DO WRONG. So they got back together LA.

Thankfully, my boyfriend and I we are much more matured than them. I hate them. My boyfriend decides on his own, and whatever problems we have we do not bring others into it. We solve it among ourselves. Yeah because Sufardi is better than Reza. OBVIOUSLY. DUHHHH.

Arrival

So yeyyyy, I'm finally with my boyfriend in Johor. (: so happy.

I slept at around 3am last night and woke up at 6am because my parents were leaving for the airport, so I had to say goodbye. I couldn't go back to sleep because I was so excitedddd to meet my boyfriend later. Like he said, "sayang...a few more hours" Ahhhh, I grinned.

And so we met around 1pm at Jurong East. Poor thing, he still hasn't gotten his sleep yet. So yeah then, we took a cab to Woodlands Checkpoint and sighhh inside the cab we kinda got into a tiny row. But but but, I was sooo glad he actually stopped me before continuing with our journey. He wanted to apologise and not drag things! I like. So matured. I mean, if he didn't stop me to apologise, we would have continued with such bad mood and ruin the whole day. But he didn't. Ahhh, he's been so much better. When he did that, I was really proud and happy to be his one and only. (:

So yeah, after all the irritating procedures, we finally reached the hotel and checked in. The hotel was lovely. We unpacked. After unpacking, we went down to the shopping centre nearby and bought our lunch. After lunch, we both fell asleep, considering I barely had enough sleep and he didn't sleep at all last night.

I woke up at 8pm and got ready for dinner. Honey woke up around 9pm. By the time we were ready, we left the hotel at 10pm. All shops were closeeeeee. :/

We went to the "clarke quay" of JB which is very nearby, but since it was a Monday night, there weren't much people. And plus, the people there kept staring at us. We didn't feel safe. So we actually went back up to the hotel room and ordered room service. It was fun as well. Having dinner with my boyfriend at the side of the bed on the table. We watched the Oscars while dinner. I had the fried rice and he ordered the penang char kway teow. Food was okayyy. Biasa la.

Ian called a few times, haha, my boyfriend sorta got pissed. And told him Lisa and I needs to spend our private time. Ian apologised.

Then we just lay in bed and talked til we fell asleep. He actually had no problem falling asleep because he was really tired. I understand. I was pretty moody and sorta cried, because I was really afraid of going to London and missing this pretty boy next to me.

tiredtiredtired

I made calls to friends today. To inform them, I am leaving SG for London in a few weeks time, subject to my VISA approval.

I got ready. I went to Ardi's house. Hang out at the Mum's shop. Met him, followed him to work.

I am damn tired to blog.

Bye. Hahaha story halfway tell.What horrible English.

Story told halfway laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Then went home, and sleep. Tired. Too tired.

Cleaning up my closet Part 1

I cleared my drawers today. 3 of them are empty now. I have two big boxes filled with bags. I threw a lot away and one box is filled with my things from my shelf and some from my 3 drawers. Most of the stuff I am bringing to London and the others? I THROW. All the stuff from my past relationships, I THROW. Haha. Not important to me anymore.

And then. I went to the shops to make copies of my VISA application, cause I am afraid I might make a mistake. I had lunch and then started on my VISA application form. I got tired and fell asleep.What a boring day.

The Sweetest

I slept around 3 plus last night and woke up at 10am. I called Insworld to confirm the right amount to be wired to the school in UK. Once I have confirmed it, I informed Daddy and he wired the amount right away.

My maid asked me what should she cook for dinner today. I said, "Mee Soto, cook for me all these nice food that I love before I leave for the UK." - in malay of course. Haha.

I followed my maid to the shops - she wanted to buy the ingredients for mee soto. I bought the ingredients for chocolate chip cookies, I made copies of my results and certificates, I bought cd-r, I developed 2 pictures of us in wallet size while my maid did her grocery shopping.I went back home and helped my maid cook. I cleared my folders of my results and certificates and arranged them in alphabetical orders. I burned songs onto the CD for my boyfriend so he could have it in his car. I put the picture of us in my bag so I would bring it later. And I baked my cookies.

Around 4pm, my boyfriend picked me up and we went to his place to eat at his Mum's shop.

And then we went upstairs to his place, and hung out and he got ready for work. Time wasn't on our side uhhh todayy.

Car ride was nice. He was being so lovely towards me. Very patient and lovely. And then when we arrived at St James, I needed to pee, so I actually went inside Dragonfly with my slippers. Haha. And then, he said, "sayang jangan balik dulu please? stay sini sekejap." (THAT'S THE FIRST!)

So I stayed and after he punch in for work, put on his jacket, we hung out in his car for awhile. He said the nicest things. And we hugged and kissed. Tears ran down both our cheeks. And the nicest thing ever that happened, was when, he kissed my forehead.

Well yeah, he has kissed my forehead before. But that 2 kisses on the forehead just now felt so nice. I actually felt really blessed and happy. I felt the love. I felt all the magical feeling.

Did I mention? My boyfriend. is willing to wait for me for like 3 years, he says he wants to take down my family's contact number, and will pass me all his personal details, and his family's contact number and everything. And he's gonna get internet and a laptop just to contact me through msn and phone.

So hey, story cut short, I am gonna have a long distance relationship because his mum told him to save money while I'm gone and when I come back, his 26 and I'm 23, right timing for.... permanency.

After that, I met Fatin at her workplace, passed her, her birthday gift from Fate and I. That Reza was there. Moron. She actually said, being friends with us would affect her relationship and she loves her boyfriend so much, she wouldn't allow anything to affect the relationship.

WHATEVER LA K.

Still, I told her I'm leaving first week of March and she.... well, said we would go out one day. And so I left, before I bump into that pathetic moron. Seriously.My boyfriend was so nice, like before I went he told me not to be sad if Fatin were to, maybe not accept the gift, he said, just be brave, and after everything, he called me, asking me how was everything, even though he was busy at work. And he spoke very softly, very well - mannered, very nice.

And I said, thanks and how I am lucky to have him. His reply - "the way you say things are like as if you are going to probably leave me one day for good."

I said, No, I wouldn't. And he replied, "Sayang, I have made up my mind. That I really want you in my life forever. Although I don't really show my love towards you, but in my heart, there's your name; engraved. Sometimes I can't even find the right words to say how much I love you. But just now? That kiss on your forehead, I hope you know how much I love you. I love you so much."

Very sweet. He wants to wait for me.

I love you man Sufardi, I'm sorry I have to leave.

Boyfriennnndddd........

I went Bar None with Ardi yesterday.

He picked me up in his car around 1am. I love him. So sweet.

And when we arrived, I met up with Nor, Sab, Maya and Dino.

So anyways, I hung out with Nor, talked and talked. It was nice, like being able to talk to Nor and Ardi was there as well. Because if it was at Powerhouse where I would always meet Nor, Ardi would not allow me to stay longer and make me go home. But since Ardi was there that night, it was much more comfortable and relaxing to be hanging out at Bar None with the girlfriends and boyfriend with his guy friends.

I drank. And after awhile, I was really high. After Bar None, we went to the Living Room. Just in time for David Guetta's - Love is Gone. Niceeee. After that I asked him, "wanna head home?" (:

The ride home in the car was so awesome. ((:

I woke up around noon the next day. My cousin - Kakdiana, wanted me to accompany her to Far East to do the eyelash extensions and her hair. We went there by cab and had lunch at Cahaya. We both had chicken rice. Then we did her stuff. We went shopping for baby clothes at Isetan and DFS - Galleria. I was dead tired by then. (Since I didn't sleep last night)

After everything, I went tuition though I was dead dead dead tired. I actually fell asleep while they were doing their work. Damnn tired. And then when I woke up, they started talking about fishing. -.-

That's why I always enjoy tuition.

I went home by bus. Cos I was low on ez-link value. I watched American Idol during dinner and now I'm blogging. Goodnights.

P.S. my relationship is going superb these days. He's been the sweetest. I'm gonna miss him.

Seriously?!

OMG! You know what? Malaysia Muslims - if they're not married, they're not allowed to stay in a hotel room together. Like it is against the rule in Malaysia!

Like... For Example, if Ardi and I were Malaysians, and we book a hotel room. It's not allowed. According to them, firstly, Muslims are not allowed to celebrate Vday. Secondly, if you're unmarried, you're not allowed to be behind closed doors with your partner. And they would raid hotels to catch them red-handed. Especially on Vday. Like so omg. That's pathetic.

2 months, ONLY?!?!

Yesterday night, Sufardi came back to Yishun and picked me up around 2am. We went for supper at Jalan Kayu. So fun, when he's using the car. Haha.

After supper we went for to Seletar area and parked our car there. We finally sat down and addressed the whole "me leaving SG" issue. He poured out his feelings and broke down! Like cried. And after like a whole hour, he hugged me and cried, begging me not to leave.

Very sad.

We head back home around 6am and I slept right away. I woke up around...say...... 1pm? Immediately called him saying I need to go to Insworld to make payment. So he said okay get ready, I'll pick you up in an hour. SWEET SANGAT! Yes.

We went to Insworld and made my payment. We had another "talk" again. We got very emotional about me leaving. After that, we went to Far East to eat at Ramen Ten. We walked around town and had another "talk." He says he gets really upset and his mood would swing when he thinks about me leaving. After that, we went back home. It was a fun fun fun fun day after all.

I like our car rides. (:

AndAndAnd, today is our 2 months anniversary. Feels like longer you know? Because Sufardi and I went through a lot.

I loveyoubaby.

Confession

At 10am, my phone rang.

It was from Insworld. It was regarding school. Ms Tan, sort of informally asked the school in UK whether it would be possible for me to join them for Phase 2. So now, all that's left is for me to submit an application form and they will send me a letter of successful application.

One thing left to do - break this news to my boyfriend.

"Sayang, what you doing?"

"Sleeping."

"Well, I need to talk to you about something important."

"Is it about school?"

"Yes."

"Is it bad or good news?"

"Bad"

"Don't say a word. Get ready. I'll pick you up in an hour."

And so, he arrived in his car. He went to Far East and had lunch in Pasta Mania. I had the spicy chicken pasta and he had the meat lovers pizza. And then I went to do a little something to my eyelashes. And then we headed to Starbucks at Raffles City and Deeyah gave me free drinks and we had the hazelnut chocolate chip. Finally we addressed the issue, but he didn't say much. But I'm glad we talked about it. But things were still unclear.

We headed to East Coast after that. Had cheesy balls and the hotdog prata. It was nice sitting by the beach. Many planes actually flew by and we were remembered of the issue again. Sighhhh.

We drove around after that and it was fun. At times like this, when I enjoy my dates, I don't wanna go to London. I feel that I would miss him.I'm gonna miss him though. I will. I will miss you Sufardi.

Rocky Offshore

"You never learn do you? It's already 11 plus and you're not awake," - dad.

I woke up got ready. Had Roti Prata. Checked out from the hotel, headed to the Rocky Offshore's office. The big family, like relatives and all, they wanted to check out the office.

Rocky Offshore Pte Ltd - that's the company's name. They sell ships. My dad is the Managing Director and my mum is the Human Resource Director. My cousin in law is the Marketing manager. My cousin is the Director aka BIG BOSS of the whole company. There are other workers which I don't know too.

My cousin he's not based in SG, so, technically, my dad is the boss of the SG office. Cool. (:

And then we had lunch there, because there was food catered.

Around 5pm, we all left and went back home. I am so tired. So this will be one of the short posts.

Nights.

Family Dinner

I woke up around noon. My aunt said, I snore very weirdly.

Mummy came in the room and offered, "wanna go for facial and spa and makeover and all the major pampering stuff?"

"Yes." (:

So I had lunch and got ready. I went for a spa and facial at the hotel itself. Damn nice. And then she said, she was lazy to leave the hotel. So she gave me $500 to get myself prepared for tonight. (:

I took a cab to Little India for my eyebrows.

I took another cab to Far East to get extensions of the eyelashes.

I took another cab to Vivo City, Tangs, MAC, had them do my make up.

I went to a salon at Vivo as well, to do my hair.

I took a cab back to the hotel in Sentosa.

I got dressed.

Dinner was at 8pm at the Shangri - La's function room. How cool.

We had a small celebration of Little Ariel's 'shaving of her hair' ceremony. And then we had dinner. Food was awesome.

Penne Pasta
Barbecued Chicken, Steak, Prawns, Fish, Veil, Cuttlefish.
Salad with all types of vegetables and sauce.
Seafood chowder soup.
Potatoes with Sour Cream topped with beef bacon bits and parsley.
Mini meat and chicken burgers.
Ice Cream, cakes and fruits.

There's more but I'm not gonna list all of it. Hah! Nice food. Shangri - La wahhhttt.

It was nice having a family dinner on Vday itself. I mean, I rather eat what I had tonight compared to what you had for your Valentine's Dinner. Hah!

After dinner, we went to the arcade and played games til like 1pm? And then I changed to head down to St James. Oh! I asked the waitress for a box and I packed some for my dearest boyfriend at St James. (:

He's so lucky.Hah!

I'm full of myself, aren't I? Annoyed? Of course. I sure know how you feel right now.

So I arrived at St James, passed my boyfriend food and texted Nor to leave Powerhouse because I can't get in because it's Full House and my boyfriend didn't allow me to enter. But hehe, I met Dino, and asked whether I can go in to meet Nor because Nor doesn't wanna leave. So I got in! Hugged her, had a few dance and drinks. Arghhh but like after awhile, my boyfriend texted me, "Where are you? You better go home now before I get mad. Although I'm a bouncer, You know I hate girls who club."

See, weird. Because, this is how I met my boyfriend. I was heading to St James, on Halloween and he was Ian's friend. So he said, he doesn't mind giving me free entry. So he met me at a club because I wanted to go clubbing. But now, he tells me straight in my face, "I don't actually like girls who club."

I thought, he was being irrational. Like, wtf, you're a bouncer, why can't I club? But Sufardi is different. And I like. And that's good. I mean, it shows he cares you know, like, what is my girlfriend doing in a club, and stuff, is she okay? Is she drunk? And I think he once mentioned he doesn't like the fact that his girl is dancing, and being watched by other guys. One of the reasons why he doesn't allow me to dance on the podium. I mean, would you like it, your partner, is like an exhibition where one would be so damn entertained watching your partner? Because, I'm all his. From top to bottom. So if anyone tries anything on me, that would be so wrong. And when that happens, it wouldn't be anyone's fault because you only have yourself to blame. If you don't club, if you don't go to these kinda places, then, no one would be able to touch you right? So the right thing to do is, stay away, avoid all these places.

Anyways, I left soon after. Because, I couldn't club in peace! It's like, I kept hiding from the bouncers. In fact, I'll stop clubbing. I'm getting bored of the songs.

So I met him outside the lobby and we said our goodbyes near the car park. He wasn't mad or anything. We were fine. In fact, he kept teasing me a lot. I like his teases. Hah! You don't get teases from the hot bouncer at st james! Okayyy, you don't care, tak herannnn, tapi I herannnn. Hahaha.

I took a cab back to the hotel and now blogging, eating cup noodles at the same time. And heading to bed after this.

Happy Valentine's Dayyyy.

Valentine's Gifts

Okay, I'm damn proud of myself. You wanna know why? Continue reading. *grins.

Today was the day, I would finalise my boyfriend's Valentine's present! Haha. Well, I wouldn't be getting anything for sho'. Cos Sufardi doesn't celebrate Valentine's. But heyyy, I do! ((:

And just because he isn't gonna get me anything, doesn't mean I cannot get him anything right. Because he thinks, I am not gonna get him anything. But actually, I am. I did. I like getting him something. I am sucker for surprises - being surprised or surprising someone. ((:

So I woke up around noon, and wrote down the list of things to do during lunch. I went to the photo shop downstairs and developed my favourite photo of us, bought wrapping paper and collected my dress.

I went home, turned on my favourite Dragonfly hits really loudly and got to work. I took out the heart shaped box and filled it with - eclairs, mars bars, cadbury, mnms and timeout. I added a 'love' and 'someone special' card. And then I took out ribbons and wrapped in around the box. It looked really pretty!

Then my favourite song was being played, Dancing to my favourite song. It's so house.Next, I wrapped the perfume I got him. And then, I placed the photo I developed on the photoframe. I took pictures of my presents. I placed it all in a nice big black bag and filled it up with Oreo Cookies, still wrapped of course. Hah.

But I was still having problems on when to pass it to him, because I have my family dinner tmr night itself on V-day. So how? Sigh. The only way is tonight, I could pass him after the clock strikes midnight.

During dinner, I casually mentioned, how cool it would be if I could stay at The Shangri - La Sentosa tonight, since there would be dinner there tmr. And my dad replied, "go book a room ah, stay there."

I went like, "really???!?!?!!?"

He nodded.

I excused myself and called the hotel. I booked for 2 nights. So I will be here til Sunday. After dinner, I packed. Daddy sent me there. I settled myself in. The hotel is really nice. Really really really damnnn nice. Pretty.

Dad left, and I had the room to myself. I took a shower and thankfully I was smart enought to bring the gifts, I headed down to St James! Yeyyy. I didn't even have to pay for expensive cab fare. Like sentosa and st james are like what, 5 minutes apart?

I met baby and passed him his gifts. He was busy though. Friday night. Sigh. Didn't have much time with him. I went upstairs to Mono2 to get some drinks foc hehe, from Bear. Headed back to the hotel. Cab fare was like what, 7 bucks only.

Oh, if you read my previous post, I told you I met stranger right, and stranger said, why stranger has been distant right? Story cut short - stranger's fcuking jerk bloody jerk partner doesn't allow stranger to mix with us. It's either love or friends. Fcukfcukfcuk. fcukyou jerk. I am so pissed. I hate you.

I'll say it again, I HATE REZA SUHAIDI!

I love Sufardi though. I lovelovelove you Sufardi.

Stranger

Learn. You watch and you learn.

I woke up around noon. Not that early. Hahaha. I had Mee Siam for breakfast. I realise. I like to give you full details of my day. Like, come to think of it, who the hell would care which Mee I had for breakfast. Yesterday, it was Mee Soto and today Mee Siam.

I feel moronic. I do. My condolences Lis. Right.

So anyways, I met my boyfriend for lunch at Causeway point at Cafe Gallilee. Big mistake eating there. Because, the food wasn't nice at all. He actually went like, " the chicken ain't fresh....blablabla." I'm thinking, "this man, really knows his food shux."

He bought some chocolate cake as well. I didn't want it. But he kept feeding me. My god, he's like fattening me up, I swear. And then, after that, we shared ice cream at mcdonalds. Haha, the new cadbury one. I like today. I like. He would tease me a lot.

We headed to Harbourfront after that. Train ride - fun! We bought donuts at Vivo. He smoked at the linked bridge and then he left for work. I enjoyed today. Before he left, he said, "you jangan cakap I tak manja-manja dengan you, nie I dah peluk-peluk, cium-cium you, I saaayyyyaannnnggg youuuu. I tahu kadang-kadang perangai I macam sundal, I selalu buat you marah tapi I tak tahu kenapa I sayyaannggg you."

I was on cloud 9.

After that, I went to Daiso, to buy a big box, a paper bag and a photo frame. He still doesn't have a clue of what I'm planning for him. And then I headed to Harbourfront Centre which I bumped into this 'stranger.'

This stranger works there now. I hugged this stranger and held back my tears so badly.I couldn't say much, kept swallowing my saliva. I guess, some things, just, can never be replaced. Oh how I missed that stranger right now. I thought I could have this stranger replaced, but no. I don't think so. I know so actually. This stranger and I went for a smoke, but it was damn fcuking short. This stranger promised to tell me what happened tomorrow. I am all confused. I wanna write more. But I am still speechless and still thinking myself, what happened, what did I say, what did the stranger said, what the hell is going on. I don't know. I hate having bad memory. Really.

My boyfriend called me while I was with stranger. I told him I would have to give him a call back. At first, he was mad that I was really suspicious as if I did something behind his back. I told him who this stranger was and what happened. And he was the sweetest to be there for me telling me, the stranger would make things right again. I hope. I need the stranger. I am not threatening you stranger. But, if I leave SG, I wanna spend lots of days with you stranger. And please stick to your words, when you say you'll call, please call.

10-s

Babes. I slept really late and woke up early today again!

My dad woke me up at 10am; 9:50am to be exact.
"Wake up wake up, get things done, don't waste the day!" - my dad.

I also received a note from my mother.

Note: Please bring your dress to the seamstress for this Saturday. Mum.

1. I went to the shops downstairs to alter my dress.

Well, my mummy bought a dress for me, but it was kinda long so I had to go get it altered. It's for this Saturday's dinner party at the Shangri - La. So fun. I like having my family's dinner parties. Though this one it's for some baby who doesn't even know what the hell is going on.

2. I shopped for some groceries for mummy.

Along with the tailoring, she added a few more things she wanted me to buy from the market. Hah! It's been long since I actually, went to the market. And as usual, it's so crowded. Eeeyer.

3. I had breakfast - Mee Soto. It was yummy.

I got hungry, I sat down by the coffeeshop alone, and ordered a mee Soto cos I was hungry. Yeah. That's the first. I mean, I have never woke up this early and sit down by the coffee shop by myself and enjoyed a good breakfast.

4. I went back home to change.

I hate the market smell. I do. When I get married, I would shop at the Supermarkets on weekends with my husband. We would buy lots of instant food. Because, I don't wish to be cooking every night. And if I have kids, I would buy both healthy and unhealthy food. So they would enjoy the goodness in life and yet taste the eeewww in egg tofu.

5. I headed down to MDIS to collect my results.

I took 855, and by then, it was lunch time. So I had to wait for Rasid to come back to get my results. -.- I even managed to eat lunch. I even bumped into this girl who I've met at St James. She works there. Her name is Hannah. Yeah. Small world. Finally after an hour of waiting, I got my results and I left that school.

6. And then to Alexandra Hospital for my dental appointment to remove my stitches.

It was a very fast procedure. I gave my IC, waited a few minutes, they called my name, the dentist advised crap, took out the thread and I left. I got teased by this guy from CD, firemen. I don't really fancy these firemen, they really like to tease girls.

7. And then to Perak Road to submit my results to Miss Tan to be sent to the schools in London.

It was near Little India. Passed my results to Ms Tan. She made copies and sent it to the school in London. Good luck Lis, I thought.

8. I went to tuition.

I took the train to Sembawang. Long train ride. I daydreamt. I miss my boyfriend who has been really tired these past few days, sleeping at home. I miss that lady who doesn't want to talk to me. I taught tuition and today was extra long because that boy had lots of homework to do.

9. I went Valentine's Day Shopping.

Did I mention, my boyfriend doesn't celebrate Valentine's Day? He says, it's like....Nothing. Okayy. Actually, I'm over it as well. Haha. But then again, everyone likes surprises, do they? And it's not just cause it's Valentine's I'm doing these extra special thing right? I always do something special. On a normal day, I would buy him gifts, chocolates, take him out, and him too, to me. Bottom line, we do something special, on random days as well. So why not on this day too?

So, I thought about it, I am going to buy this one perfume he wanted to buy last month as the main gift. I have a small love card at home that I've been saving up for something special. I wanna buy a photoframe that has our picture framed for him to be set up on his computer desk. And I bought LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS OF CHOCOLATE. I will buy a big box and a big bag. I will fill the big box and the big bag with the lots and lots of chocolate that I bought. It's unique.And then, I'm gonna deliver it to him during work. That would be a major surprise. ((:

10. I went back home and started on what I was gonna write on my card.