I'm horrible

OMG. Lis, you say you don't want to fall in love?

Okay, dear diary, dear blog, Lis, is confuse.

I'm sorry but I can't do this. I met someone new. I know its horrible for me to ditch someone who likes me. (A) I'm sorry. But I think, I am interested to get to know someone else better. (S) Yes. I am not saying I am in love. But I think (S) is really charming. Really charming. How is it that you are attracted to that someone but just don't want to get into a relationship?

I met Sufardi last night. I just got back from Malaysia. And I met him. He met me. Sanggup he ditched work and met me around midnight. Sweeettttttt sangat sangat kannn.

We went to McDonalds. I forgot to bring my wallet. Hah! How stupid. Because I was in the midds of sneaking out, I didn't bring my wallet. I didn't bring my ez link card. Sufardi passed me coins. Argh, I'm so stupid. How embarrassing. He must think I'm a gold digger asking him to spend money on me. NO OKAY. I SERIOUSLY FORGOT MY WALLET. Anyway, we walked home after that, hung out under my block. Then, after that censored. Whatever.

This morning he asked me, so what are we now?

Shittt, I told him sorry, I don't want to get into a relationship. So I'm a bitch. I ditched (A) and I told Sufardi, sorry, no. I'm so horrible.