KL

I woke up to a text.

I am seriously gonna miss you so much. I love you Lisa Banuh. O-kay. Sweet. But Sufardi likes to call me that. I think he once mentioned that he likes the fact that I am mix? But still. Sometimes, all that teasing. Sheesh, but yeah, I'm fine. Haha.

I got ready right away. Because we're suppose to be at my aunt's place in an hour. Last minute packing and we left home. I called Sufardi on the way to tell him I was leaving. Soooo glad to hear his voice for awhile.

The journey was fast because I slept the whole journey. That is because I did not sleep the night before. My sister said I snored damn loudly. Embarrassing la. I mean, what must the bodyguard think?!?! But we were in a Porsche Cayenne sooo smooth ride la.

Had lunch immediately at Hotel Nikko at the Chinese restaurant. Did you know how much that cost? About 5000 RM. Yes.

Went back to settle down at my cousin's place. Had another nap. And then my bodyguard happened to stop by and saw me sleeping again. He was like, wow your sister hardcore eh. Sheesh. Embarassing.

And wake up for dinner. Haha. Called and texted boyfriend. He said, he missed me so badly he felt like crying. Wow.

Dinner, yeah nice food, family, talking, and then headed home. Still pretty exhausted. Everyone is more likely to be excited for tmr. And yeah went back home and here I am blogging.

Okay I gtg, I wanna call my sweetheart..

Goodnight people, Happy New Year!

Sufardi's Birthday

We celebrated Sufardi's birthday. His real birthday is on the 30th. But I'm leaving for KL. So yeah we celebrated on the 29th.It was like one hell of a day.

That's because the night before I was soo tired. Because I did not get enough sleep. And I had to wrap his birthday presents and prepared what I wanted to wear the next day.So in the morning of the 29th.I woke up at 10am, called up my lecturer. Because I had to meet him up for a discussion.

Went to Reza's place to collect the camera to take pictures later! Met my lecturer at 12pm at Ang Mo Kio Library. Went to Novena Square to buy a white tank top at cotton on. Took cab back home. Bought batteries for the camera. Got home and get ready. I was late.

But my lovely boyfriend actually came down to Yishun to pick me up. And said, take as long as I want. And sooo he waited. Finally, I came. We looked like a pretty couple! Really really pretty.

Maybe we’d have really good-looking kids? Ahh what the hell!

And so ride in the train was pretty interesting because I found out some pretty interesting stuff about him. When we alighted at Orchard, we went to Lido to catch a movie. Bedtime Stories. Such a KID show. Haha. It was....o-kay la. Yeah.

And then we walked and walked. Sufardi still doesn't know where I was gonna take him. It's a surprise. Finally when he saw Hard Rock Cafe, he looked sooo surprised. I'm glad.

He said, no one has ever taken him out to dinner like this. And the best he went was Jack's Place. We ordered NZ Sirloin Steak for the gentleman and the Herb Grilled Chicken Breast for the lady. Sufardi actually tried tasting Tobasco sauce. He just couldn't take it. He said his tummy ached, smoke coming out from his ears etc. Haha. I had such a good time laughing. Cute la seyyyy.There were two guys on stage singing acoustic. Played nice songs. So it was nice dining and a live acoustic set at the background. Lovely sangat sangat!

After we're done with the main course, I showed my signal to the waitress. They brought out ice cream with a candle on it. And the acoustic band announced, "okay, we have another birthday in the house today to Sufardi" And they sang him a Happy Birthday Song. And he blew the candle on the ice cream. The waiter and waitress sang along clapping hands. He looked speechless.I could see, I made him happy. Yey. They took a snapshot of us. Polaroid picture. And gave us in a card as a souvenier. Omg, what a lovely moment. We looked so sweet. Seriously.

I presented my gifts to him as well.

After HRC, we went to Mc Cafe, My favourite hang out place and just sat down and talked. Sufardi and I talked, laughed, touched, kissed, just like a couple in love. This was what I meant, when you can sit down and do nothing, and just talk.

We left soon after, went back to my place and hung out. Looked at our photos and well, talk. My mum left to fetch my sister cos my sister was at a chalet til very late. I showed him my whole house. Showed pictures of my family, the other 2 rooms, living room, kitchen. Since we ate around 7pm right, And it was 2am, we were both sorta hungry. We had fried macaroni at my dining table. Lovely.

Then we went upstairs and hung out and he left in the morning.

Happy Birthday Sufardi. I love you.

Amazing you

We were like this amazing pretty couple. He was sooo cute in his black long sleeve shirt. And after that, we left, locking arms. I felt so happy. I love that he gets all cheeky but still manages to be soooo decent in public.

We went to coffee bean to hang out. Had tea and hot chocolate with marshmellows. We were talking and everything. I was smiling the whole time. It was hard when he had to separate! He even wanted to meet him at night. But I told him, we both hadn't had our good night sleep. So let's sleep tonight and have a super fun day tmr.

We kissed here and there. How lovely! Realllyyy....I took the train towards Pasir Ris and he took the train towards Boon Lay. A few minutes after we separated, he called me, he said, "sayang... I miss you."

Even praba don't do that.

Sadly, my phone battery died. I forgot to charge. I missed him like hell.

So I went to meet mummy and siblings because we were invited to dinner at her friend's place. I kept dozing off. Fcuking tired. Its like 40 hours without sleep okay.

Fcuk.

When I got home, the only thing that kept me smiling was my boyfriend's voice message. His voice was soooo cute and gosh, I'm still grinning from ear to ear.

I love you Sufardi.

Eve of Mummy's Birthday

I woke up pretty early today. I immediately took a shower. Had breakfast. Promised to meet Fate at 2pm.

Before that, mummy made me try out my evening gown with accessories and everything.

Got ready to meet Fate at Isetan. I was in a hurry so I wear the simplest. A white tee and jeans and heels.We met up at 2pm. Bumped into Dalia during her lunch. So we went to the 5th level and had ice cream and D had long john for lunch. Chocolate Mc Flurry is so yummy.

So we looked around on what to get my boyfriend, but everything just seemed very expensive.We went to Far East to look for something else. But it's like.... hahahaha. I saw sooo many pretttyyy thingsss.

I bought this leopard skin top. It's so sexy. Like not exactly. S-e-x-y. but it's very Rachel Karan Green. It makes you look very chic and posh. Wear it with a skirt and boots. I swear heads will turn.I also bought a Quarts watch full of Swarovsky... Plus a pretty bracelet. That cost a bomb too! Full of swarovsky as well. It's sooooo pretty.

And I still havent bought Sufardi anything.And I'm broke already. Haha!

We went to Hard Rock to check out the menu and which table was given to me after I have reserved my table.We went back home. On the way back home, I stopped by Novena. And then there, I got him 2 polo tee and a cap. I was in a rush because I had to go for mummy's birthday dinner. Mummy kept calling me, screaming, you better not be late for dinner because I don't want us to arrive last at the restaurant.

It was sooooo tiring. I hope my boyfriend appreciates what I've done for him. I even had to run all the way to the shops in front to get his wrapping paper, along with mummy's cos I need to wrap mummy's one before dinner.

So, I got home, wrapped it, got ready and we left for dinner. Happy Birthday Mummy! I hope you like the Anna Sui purse I got you.

Love you loads!

Lucky Beetch

Fate came over my place last night and hung out and we headed to st james after that. We got free entry without my boyfriend's help okayyyy. Its cos I knowww the some of the CSOs there. Cool.

Music was nice. Party ain't that hot. Dragonfly was hot though. Told Henry to pass my boyfriend the chocolate I got him, "tell sufardi, customer give"

We stayed up til like 6am, waiting for my boyfriend to punch out from work. Bumped into Justin's brother, Jay - Bartender there. We were talking to him, and my boyfriend actually, came from a corner(talking to his friend there), and raised his voice loudly, hey... who are you?I told my boyfriend, it's okay. It's just Fate's friend. Gee, I didn't know my bf can be THAT protective. When I told Fatin about it, she was like… wow cool, protective she… O-kay. So, I’m suppose to be thankful my boyfriend is that protective? Okay! Luckyyy laaaaa I.

After Fate left, we went to mcdonalds for some ice milo. Went back home around 8am. We promised to meet up again at 2pm at Paya Lebar area because we're suppose to attend his colleague's wedding. Uh-huh.

Post Xmas

Today, I was woken up by mummy's voice. She hollered, "wakeeeee upppp....your granduncle is in the hospital. We have to visit him today."

But we had to do it in the afternoon because Danial had to go for Friday Prayers. During the afternoon, I went to tuition - last lesson of the month.I went threading after that, and boy it hurt so bad. And I ended up looking even more Indian. Sigh.

By the time I got home, I got ready to go to the hospital. After that, I headed to Vivo City, to do a little shopping for my mummy's and boyfriend's birthday presents. I only managed to get mummy's presents. I got her a cute purse Anna Sui. Uhhhhh.. That cost a bomb please. And also a heart shaped chocolate box of ferre roche. I so do not know how to spell it. I got one for my boyfriend as well!

I went to meet my boyfriend for awhile. To pass him those chocolates which he finished in just a few hours. I was like, 'that fast baby?' He replied, 'you don't know your boyfriend?' Haha. Of course, he said that in a friendly tone.

And also. For a kiss and a hug and to get all that lovely feeling. Initially, I was pretty upset and pissed I dunno for what reason, prolly because I was heading to Vivo alone, and wished to see and spend more time with him. But so yeah... I met him and he always manages to cheer me upppp. Yes.. There was once, he made a joke and I 'attempted' to push him - my hands on his chest, I thought he would actually move or jerk because back then, when I did that to Praba, he would like..... move, or stumble to the back a little? But Sufardi, when I attempted to push him, he stood still. And I was like, o-kay. What was I thinking?

After that I got happy sangat sangat! Because I saw my boyfriend and also, I saw this gorgeous handbag which I am so getting from River Island and this lovely lovely necklace from Forever 21. And another handbag at some unknown shop that still looked gorgeous. Not now though, I am so saving up for my boyfriend's birthday, his gift, my mum's dinner and and and.... TMR I'M PARTYING WITH FATE AT ST JAMES. Well of course I don't pay for cover charge, I have to pay for cab fare though. This would be my last party of the year because on the 30th, I'm leaving remember?

On the way back home, I wanted to call my aunt who has almost the same number as that lost skinny indian Praba, but instead I accidently called that lost skinny indian Praba, and I said, sorry wrong number, I wanted to call my aunt, and he replied, no no you dont think I would - I HUNG UP ON HIM. Don't wanna waste my time on that lost skinny Indian.

There is a wedding under my block. It's decorated with all the pink ribbons and cloth. It. Is. So. Yucky.

I accidently let out that I had a conflict with Praba to my boyfriend, and he is pissed that I am still even talking to him. Yes, I am not allowed to talk to my ex boyfriends, because he asked me, would you like it if I talked to mine?

So that shuts me up. Of course I wouldn’t like it. So since Sufardi is my boyfriend, I have to listen to him. I have to respect his decisions. I know he doesn’t just make irrtational limitations for me. I don’t date those kinda boys. I date boys like Sufardi, which I have to go, to say something nice to soften up his heart. Because, after all it is my fault.

I love him!

Christmas

It's Christmas. Merry Christmas.

It's only 2pm on Christmas. And I am blogging. I woke up around 1pm. Mummy was screaming her head off. Seriously. She must be thinking, how the hell do I sleep until 1pm? Unless.... If I get to sleep VERY late; and then she starts thinking, what am I doing up so late?

I blog, watch movies of the internet, watch videos on youtube and yesterday, I had one hell of a busy night. Because, it was Xmas eve and my friends are all out.

First, I called Fatin to check things out whether her parents said anything regarding her coming back home late tonight. She said, everything was fine.

Then I spoke to Fate briefly on the phone, she was out with Iman and friends.

My boyfriend was being awfully sweet. Called me in between breaks, just to speak to me, to hear my voice.

The last person I spent about an hour on the phone was Ian. Well, when it comes to Ian, I can simply just talk to him because he's my buddy man.

I was suppose to go to Ian’s Christmas Party, but I’m not going. Because, he has too many guy friends. I don’t think Sufardi would be comfortable. Like, Lis and a bunch of guys. Plus, they’re all the type that, rides bikes. Don’t ever wanna make Sufardi feel uncomfortable. Like, he’s working hard, the place is so crowded, so many drunken idiots, and he could get punch or injure himself trying to control the place, just to freaking earn money for his parents and I, to take me out, and I’m out there partying with a bunch of boys, when his life is sort of on the line. So I am not gonna worry Sufardi. I love him way too much.

Christmas Eve

Christmas Eve

I woke up at noon. Yeah, that is my usual wake up time these days. I'm surprise my mum doesn't really say anything about it. I mean she still does, but it's lesser than back then. I realise she's much nicer these days when Daddy is not around.

I’ve always felt that my mother was this very pure and deserving entity, but on the level of my understanding as a youngster, she was just a mum and she was; she was guilty of doing mum things – setting out restrictions and making demands and preventing me from making certain turns, life turns, I suppose. So when she talked to me on that level, she was a mum from my point of view, talking to her daughter. Especially during some of the whippings she gave me – and there were quite a few, and they were all different from the whippings I got from my dad. My father’s discipline was emotional though. When he would get to whipping on me, it was as if he could beat into me some wisdom that he knew would be essential for my survival.

So anyways, I spent my day watching the movie Bolt on the internet. I didn't quite get to see the ending because my laptop lagged in the end. Mummy asked me to cook dinner tonight since I'm staying home today. But I didn't I was soooo lazyy. So mummy did.

Anyways later on, in the evening, Lee texted me asking what are my plans tonight for Christmas's Eve. I told her I'm having a mini Christmas Dinner with my family. And my mum told me I'm allowed to invite friends.

So I invited, Lee, Fate, Fatin. Yes. Haha. Mummy cooked Roast Chicken, Coleslaw, French Fries, Gravy, Mushroom Soup. Lee brought Coke and Yummy Donuts.

So anyways, they stayed til 11pm and went back home. We initially planned to go St James. But we checked it out, the cover charge tonight was 35 bucks. So we were like....Umms, Fcuk it. We'll just stay home tonight.

We even called Kelly - my ex boss from Terrapinn. And I promised her we have to really catch up after she comes back from the Phillipines; she is leaving on Friday.I'm just glad my closest friends came over tonight for a Mini Christmas Dinner.

To Sufardi,

"You look almost perfect...the only thing I can see that's wrong is your lips...they're not touching mine."

Happy Holidays Lovely People! Merry Christmas!

Clarke Quay

I woke up around noon. Mummy always prepares "breakfast" for us. I find myself very spoilt. Wake up and breakfast is served along with different juices or tea.

It is nice to have mummy at home and not working. She has been really nice ever since Dad left SG. Hopefully she stays that way. Calm and Collected.I spent my afternoon watching movies on the internet. I even managed a short nap because of last night's late night sleep at 4.30am and waking up at noon. That is like less than 8 hours of sleep.

At 4.30pm, Andy finally woke up, called me and we planned to meet for dinner. We decided to meet up at Clarke Quay around 7pm. So yeah, I had problems trying to decide on what to wear. Finally, I decided on GREEN. Haha.

We went to The Cannery's Satay Club. I HAVE NEVER DINED in at The Cannery! My goodness. Yeyyyy. I was sooo happy. Food was pretty expensive. I mean 8 bucks for a fried rice? There was like candles and everything. And did I mention, I was sooooo happy and touched! Like.... man, O-kayyy.

After dinner, we went around the corners because we wanted to walk past Zirca. It was so quiet cos it is only open from Wednesdays - Sundays.

Then I bumped into someone I sort of knew - Hafiz (CTH) through Praba back then. He was working as Security? Yeah. Black outfit with walkie talkie. He didn't really recognise me. When I mentioned, Praba's ex. He went, like... Oh okay? Haha. Probably because I was dressing differently compared to those days when I was with Praba. Plus I only meet the guy during gigs. So he usually sees me in tees and jeans and sneakers. Yesterday, I was wearing heels and all ladyyy like.

I took Andy to Cafe Iguana for some Margaritas! We had blueberry margaritas! Yummy. Haha, I got just a little tipsy. So yeah, I loveeeeeeeee that place. It made me happy too. We talked and shared and well.... Hees. I'm glad I brought Andy there.

Around 10pm, we took 851 back home from Clarke Quay. Bumped into Sabrina at the interchange. She just finished watching Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging and Twilight. She said, ATPS was boring but the boys were really cute. She said, SHE LOVED TWILIGHT!And so she bought the Twilight book, and also the next one! So exciting! So that was how I spent my Eve of Eve of Christmas.

Andy stayed over for the night. We just talked, and went to bed, cuddling. Plus, it was a rainy night.

Swissotel The Stamford

On Sunday, I watched FRIENDS til 2pm as usual.

Was suppose to meet Farhanah, but she cancelled out on me. So I called Lee. And Lovely Lee said her aunt - the one I know cos she always attend our rugby matches, yeah, she had a room at the Swissotel The Stamford at City Hall. Right next to Raffles City Shopping Center. So I went there, we hung out by the balcony; it was one the 61st floor - the room; while munching on Famous Amos cookies and cake from Secret Recipe. Uh-huh. We took pictures, because the view at night was gorgeous. I shared with Lee my stuff. And we went down to Raffles City to buy dinner. Brought it up and ate with them. Her cousins were fun and very cheerful.

It was nice to spend the night at the Swissotel The Stamford, and it was especially nice to know that her aunt's family didn't mind me coming. I felt very touch. And it was nice, to be with Lee's family. I guess, I just like the idea of socialising with other people's family.

It was nice. I love Leeeee. Haha.

Love ain’t a happy thing now, yo.

17 December 08

I did not sleep last night. Because it was December 17 2008. Haha.So anyways, I left home around 6.30am. Had breakfast at McDonalds. It was nice. The last time I had breakfast like that in the morning would be after clubbing during my single days when my girls and I had no where to go. So we had to hang out until the first train. So yeah anyways, it was nice.

We took the train to Jurong. It's been long since I take the train early in the morning when you can see all the sleepy faces of people going to work. I was one of them but heading to my boyfriend's place.

We were suppose to go to Alexandra Hospital cos Sufardi had an appointment there. But we got the wrong date. It's suppose to be tmr. So we headed upstairs and watch some movies and slept. Super tired. We also played some DJ stuff on the computer. That was so funnn. Like remixing music and pretending to be a DJ. Hees!I woke up around 5pm and went home. Made plans with Lee and Fate tmr and stuff.

Praba's sister asked me out along with her kids and his mum. Honestly, I wanna cut contacts with my EX-boyfriend's family. But I guess, it's like....I've gotten really into. They wanna have dinner at Orchard and see the boring Christmas lights this year. Recession! So anyways, yeah, I promised them Saturday night dinner.

So many things to do, so little time. Seriously, I am awfully busy these days. With, Nonsense, Non-Important Stuff. But, FUNNNNN. ((:

I went back home, washed up, had dinner, watched, Room Raiders, Wanna Come In? on MTV. Watched FRIENDS on Star World. I saw a Ross and Rachel moment. Rachel had a bad date and was sharing it with Ross. Still reminds me of stuff.

Hmmmm, okayyyy. Yeah I got really sleepy and now I'm blogging. I think my blog is really boring. Because I am super tired. But I do wanna remember. So that's why I'm blogging. I downloaded Twilight. And I wanna watch it to bed.I left out a few messy crazy things going on. Will blog when it happens.

Much Love.

Last night, or you can say early morning? Fatin and Reza came over around 2am to hang out and watch movies. Yeah, I like doing things like these cos, it's rather rare and it's always fun. We actually watched Seniman Bujang Lapok siak. They brought snacks and everything. We finally gave up around 3.30am. Set alarm til 5am. Cos they had to sneak out.

We actually smoked in my aircon room. And at 6 in the morning when my mum came in to look for my maid, she smelled the cigg smell. And she opened my bag. And there are my ciggs. So yeah I got into a whole lot of trouble.

I went back to sleep and woke up at 11am. Mummy was still upset. I finally cleared things with her after about an hour of argument. Hees, I actually said it was my friend's ciggs. Which is sorta true. Haha, it WAS Diyana's cigg until she sold it to me.

So anyways, I did my stuff for awhile and got ready for tuition. Yeah, Noah was a joy to teach. So easy. He even said, you want to sleep, sleep uh. Haha.

After that, I went out to meet Sufardi at Jurong East Mrt Station.

So yeah, I Sufardi and we headed to Cineleisure to catch a movie. TWILIGHT. I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeddddd it OMG. The vampire family was soooo cool. Edward Cullens is so gorgeous. Like majorrrrr gorgeous.

We had dinner at Selera Cuppage. It was usual. And then we head back home. And Sufardi stayed over.

Tomorrow is December 17 right, uh-huh, yes, I'm listening to Officially Yours - Craig David. Did the deed.

And I haven't slept because I'm meeting Sufardi the next day very early morning.

p.s. I LOVE TWILIGHT.

Esplanade

I woke up at 12pm. Sabrina was leaving again for Malaysia. I havent even got used to her being at home. That's because, we left for Indonesia, I went to KL and she went to Australia. And after being back for only 3 days, she left for Malaysia.

My plans were to go tuition and then meet my friends. Met Fate and Fatin and had drinks at Starbucks. Deeyah was working so we had drinks on the house! Yeah! Haha. We went to Esplanade. Lepaaaakkkk. Met up with Ian there along with his whole family cos his church was having some event and they were singing some Christmas Carols. They were good.

We hang out at Esplanade, and yeah shared our stories, secrets, gossip, I'll never get bored hanging out with those two. At Esplanade, they had the make a wish thing going on. You can ask for balloons and they would give you markers so you can write on the balloons anything you want. I got my own balloon while Fatin and Fate shared one. We wrote down what happened in 2008 and what we want to happen in 2009. We passed it back to the booth and they would put the balloons at the Singapore River. Yeah, it was very nice. I'm glad I did it with those two.

We also took a card, where you can write your wishes as well. And then you can hang it at any lightstands at esplanade. So we tied ours up together and hang 'em. All three of us kinda got emotional about things.

Mine was: I wanna start my 2009 with Sufardi. (:

And one thing we all wished for is to, wanna have faith in love again. Because we're tired, of boys after boys after boys and keep on failing. I have faith now but I want my relationship with Sufardi to work. I don’t wanna fail.Yesterday night was really pretty.

My Dress

I just found out Daddy is sick over there. He said it was on and off. Mummy's really worried. I am worried too.

Last Thursday, Mummy bought me a 200 bucks sleeveless velvet dress. for my family dinner. and a pair of red heels to go. I am so excited. My days are fully pack.

Thoughts

Sometimes, thoughts, just entered my mind.

I met Sufardi at Queensway today. He wanted to get some black pants for work. Apparently, he tore his pants at work after jumping over a barricade. It was some funny story. Uh-huh, so okay, I bought my tongue piercing. 3 for 10 bucks, it was pretty cheap la. We went to Anchor Point for awhile. Crossed over to Ikea to get a cab to town. Went over to Far East Plaza and had dinner at Cahaya. I remember ordering Fried Kway Teow and he ordered Curry Chicken Rice. We went to Lido wanting to catch a movie. But the timing was very late. So we headed down to Esplanade. He said the nicest things to me. He took my hand in his and kissed it. Melts. He was awfully sweet.

But we were interrupted by an old man who wanted to spread Christianity. Seriously?! So then we took a cab back home, passed DXO. Bumped into Praba's uncle at DXO. -.- And I told Sufardi the truth about Praba. He wasn’t happy about it. But he was sweet enough to forgive me.

Uh-huh so then we went back home. He sent me back home, and I sneaked out again to meet him. He was really cute and adorable and makes me laugh and happy. It's like....I’m really in love.

Once I got drunk, he really took care of me. Like brought me hot water and stuff like that. And then he, himself got into a fight and he fractured his right hand. Poor thing. I have ever followed him to work. And he actually introduced me to his friends. I felt really special. We went for dinner at Vivocity at Long John and he was awfully funny and very lovely. We took a cab down to her place and watched the movie there. It was just us and another couple in the cinema cos it was a late night movie.

That night, we went to a very nice place near my area where there were a lot of plants and flowers and we danced under the stars. And he was wearing a hoody and a cap and started rapping while holding his balls. WTF?! Haha. He looked really like some, white boy. Fcuking cute tho’! And how he walked around her in circles, checking me out from top to bottom and saying I’m very beautiful.

And he ended the night with I love you.

I want

I'm in love..........................................

Haha.

I wanna have time alone with Fatin.

I wanna have lunch with Fate and Lee.

I wanna go st james.

I wanna tell you, that life is a happy crazy mess.

I wanna laugh at Sarah right in her face.

Oh boy, can you imagine?

I wanna let you know, I have secrets.

Family Party

I woke up really late. I was suppose to go shopping with my aunt and mum. But it was postponed tmr.

Oh! This I must share as well. Didn't I mention? I love family. Let me share how I am spending my New Year's Eve.

Well, you all know I stay in a luxury apartment and it's really big and it's 10 mins away from the twin towers. So all the entertainment are just a few mins away, like Zouk KL, Hard Rock Cafe KL. Uh-huh. And all the shoppingggg.

Okay so on the 30th Dec, I'm leaving for KL at 10 in the morning. We'll be there around lunch and we'll have lunch at Hotel Nikko, we'll have a private room, for the whole family, in that top notch Chinese Restaurant. We'll settle down and unpack.

For dinner, my billionaire cousin and his bodyguard will cook dinner for us. Something he learnt from his nanne(grandmother).

On 31st December, eve of NEW YEAR. At 1pm, we'll have lunch at his office. And at home we'll have a mini prayer session. Around 4pm, we'll have High Tea by the pool. After that, (this is my favourite part), we'll have a formal family dinner. Boys are expected to wear shirts, ties and blazers. Girls are to be in dresses or gowns and gloves. It's like a family prom night. We'll have hairdressers and beauty stylist for the ladies. Everyone has to be well groom. There will be a professional photographer to get the whole huge family portrait. and to get like other snapshots during our dinner and dance. And also a videographer. Re-live the good old disco dancing days. Yes. There will be live bands, DJs and karaoke session. This will be held at his place's ballroom.
There would be super yummy, delicious and tasty food.

At 11.30pm we'll head upstairs to his place, at midnight, we'll be able to see the fireworks at KLCC because we live like 10 mins away. And then, the party continues.

Cool right, I mean, seriously, would your family ever do all these? Super cool right.

So yeah, I'm going shopping. I wanna get a pretty dress and gorgeous shoes, and necklace and all the accessories and on that day, I want the hairdressers and beauty stylist to doll me up.

Bentley and Bodyguards

Hari Raya Haji itself. All my relatives came down to my aunt's place.

It was nice, I always have fun. My favourite boy Hizkil was there. He's so adorable.

Oh! I must mention, I went to collect Trisyia's birthday cake, at the Cafe of Safra Yishun, and it was so cool because I was driven in a Bentley with 2 bodyguards. (:

I talk to Sufardi everyday these days.

Hari Raya Haji

I went to Sufardi's place in the morning!!!!!!!!!!!

What's with the !!!!!!!!!!!!?

Happy.

Okayys so later on, I headed to my aunt's place at night. It was Batrisyia's birthday. Batrisyia and Hizkil came down after their holiday at Sabah. It was Hari Raya Haji eve as well. There was also, my cousin's bodyguards that drove down from KL to SG.

I'm horrible again

I went St James.

I was suppose to meet Arin and Razim there. Fcukenly, Praba was there. I didn't know.

Then Sufardi, was like... Can I see who you here with? He was worried I guess. Like me in a club, and after all, he does have feelings for me... which means he cares for me.

Aiyahh, then I couldn't find my friends. So I introduced him to Praba. Shittt. Do you know how I felt? I lied to Sufardi, saying he was just a friend. I lied. I am a liar. I feel so bad. All Sufardi did, was just being caring BUT I fuckingly, LIED. Fcukfcukfcuk. I hate myself.

I met Haniff at St James also that night.

Oh! And hehe, I kissed Sufardi at the smoking room last night. FCUKEN HOT OKAY. *shuts eyes* I kissed a bouncer at a club. I am giggling.

I might be in love. After all, I've known him for about a month now.

Shoes

I went shopping with Mummy. She bought me 3 pairs of shoes.

Are you jealous? HAHA.

Daddy left SG today for Haj.

Sufardi is still texting and calling me.

So is (A).

I ignored both. I told (A) off totally.


AND I give up. I like this guy. You know what, he was the only one who texted me. Comforting me about my dad. I mean I was sad, really sad Daddy was leaving. And Sufardi was the only one that comforted me. I didn't even tell him about my feelings. But he knew!

So I give up. I am giving in. I am letting Sufardi court me. After all, it feels nice to get some attention from someone. And Sufardi, is super cool, like texting me at work and really caring. And surprisingly he knows that I was sad Daddy had to leave.

Dear World,

Lisa is falling in love again because impressive Sufardi is creeping his way to her heart and trying to win the whole of it.

Dear Sufardi,

You are cool man.

I analyzed him

I met Fate and Fatin today. I told them what happened yesterday. With Sufardi and I.

Well, not in details. I kinda avoided Sufardi. NOT that I didn't like him. I do. But I was really not ready to get into a relationship. I don't wanna screw up. I'm so slenger. I need Sufardi to see my slenger side. Can he accept my slenger side?

If cannot, please don't date me.

But he called and he texted. HE'S THE SWEETEST. I felt so bad.

Fatin had to rush off. I lost mood. When Fatin's gone, I'm done man. So we went home.

Sufardi, is still texting me. God, this guy is really impressive and knows how to win my heart. But I don't want to fall in love. But this guy, he's making me fall for him. Fcuk, he's so sweet. I just receive a text from him. Pandai siak dekni kejar perempuan.

Does he do this to all girls? Shittt, SORRY, just insecure okayyy, remember I don't trust guys easily! But I don't think so, he sounds so sincere. And I asked him, when was the last time you had a girlfriend? A year ago.

This guy seems pretty decent.

HAHA, I am at the stage of analyzing him. Which means, I actually thought of dating this guy. Which means, I am falling for him.

No I can't.

I'll just tell him, sorry, I'm not prepared to be in a relationship. Bye.

So sad, I kinda like him. But I don't wanna fall in love.

I'm horrible

OMG. Lis, you say you don't want to fall in love?

Okay, dear diary, dear blog, Lis, is confuse.

I'm sorry but I can't do this. I met someone new. I know its horrible for me to ditch someone who likes me. (A) I'm sorry. But I think, I am interested to get to know someone else better. (S) Yes. I am not saying I am in love. But I think (S) is really charming. Really charming. How is it that you are attracted to that someone but just don't want to get into a relationship?

I met Sufardi last night. I just got back from Malaysia. And I met him. He met me. Sanggup he ditched work and met me around midnight. Sweeettttttt sangat sangat kannn.

We went to McDonalds. I forgot to bring my wallet. Hah! How stupid. Because I was in the midds of sneaking out, I didn't bring my wallet. I didn't bring my ez link card. Sufardi passed me coins. Argh, I'm so stupid. How embarrassing. He must think I'm a gold digger asking him to spend money on me. NO OKAY. I SERIOUSLY FORGOT MY WALLET. Anyway, we walked home after that, hung out under my block. Then, after that censored. Whatever.

This morning he asked me, so what are we now?

Shittt, I told him sorry, I don't want to get into a relationship. So I'm a bitch. I ditched (A) and I told Sufardi, sorry, no. I'm so horrible.

Rich Men Please

And so, I'm back. After 2 weeks of being away from SG. I realise I do miss home and I'm back. My cousin drove back to KL in a Chrysler so it took less than 3 hours. Uh-huh. That is pretty fast.

And on Thursday, I went to watch Madagascar 2 with Batrisyia & Hizkil & Kak Imah. We went lunch at Chilli's Grill & Bar. They had some pretty cool margaritas yummy.

Met Abg Redzuan and a few more cousins and his business associate, Eve at their office. She's pretty cool. Totally click with her. We had an 8 course dinner at a chinese restaurant at Hotel Nikko. We were teasing my younger cousin about working part time to save up cash to take his girlfriend out. And my male cousins were saying how the guy should always pay for the girl. Eve said actually sometimes she doesn't mind paying for the meal. It's like this time the guy pays and the next the girl pays turn by turn you know. But what if you get a guy, like when you dine in at a hotel restaurant, the girl pays, but when you dine in at mcdonalds, the guy pay. HAHA. During this discussion, I was like yeah! I paid for most of my dates with Praba and when we go to expensive places, it's all me and when it comes to mcdonalds ice cream praba would pay for it. Out of the blue, my cousin turned and asked me right in the face, HAVE YOU EVER DATED SOMEONE THAT MADE YOU PAY FOR EVERYTHING? I swallowed my saliva and said, Ummm, no?

My previous relationship, was cool but he was kinda pathetic in the greens department.So anyways, driven back home in a Bentley. (: yes, Abd Redzuan passed some cash to me and told the bodyguard to take Eve and I shopping tmr.

That night, I had trouble sleeping. I fell asleep at 6am. And woke up at 9am. Yes I had to meet Eve 11am. We went for breakfast and bodyguard picked us up in a Porsche Cayenne. He drove us to Pavillion. Bought a whole lot of stuff, paid by Eve. Haha.

HRC Malaysia

Okay. Let's just say, my life.... I find it pretty cool. Sure there have been killer times, but like they always say, "better in time."

I enjoyed my secondary school days with Ikram, he was cool for those teenage days.

And then after that, I met Praba right away, that was fun life too because we went to a lot of places - nightlife, dining, hotel stays etc. It ended pretty badly for me. But everything happens for a reason right?

And as for family, it's just fortunate I am born with a cool one. Like right now, I'm in KL. I stay in a luxury apartment, with a huge flat screen tv, a pool table, a jacuzzi, a gym at HOME. Yes.

The night before, I went to Hard Rock Cafe KL. Yup. Super fun. Danced my ass off. The band playing was also super cool. That's why I repeat. I love my life. I really do. I wanna say more. But really you just imagine la okay. I lazy la.

I spoke to Sufardi again last night. (:

I called Fatin and told her all about it.

Keychains

Last day, I went shopping. I don't know what to get each friend.

I bought all of them keychains with their name on it.

1. FATIN!
2. Fate
3. Lee
4. Ian
5. Dalia
6. Ashik
7. Farhanah
8. Pretty
9. Diyana
10. I'm not that close to him, but I still got Sufardi one.

Haha, of course he wasn't the LAST one I thought of. He was number 5. After Ian. Cos I knew him through Ian.

I texted Sufardi last night. But we're just friends. But he really seems so sincere. Lissss.

Okay. So then, after shopping and lunch, we headed to the Indonesia Airport. We took the plane to KL. I'm sorry if there weren't much details because the pictures aren't with me. From KL, my the rest of the family, EVERYONE, went back home. They're in Singapore.

Day 2 Indonesia

Sunday morning, we had breakfast at the hotel. Today, we hired a traffic police to escort us everywhere we go. SO COOL. It' s like, you know in Singapore, when some major person, like the president or minister is travelling there will be traffic polices in front and behind? Yeah we had one in front, so we beat ALL TRAFFIC. Wherever we go, everyone look at our bus. Some Indonesians, ACTUALLY SALUTED US. Some even ask, who are these people? My tour guide says, oh tourists. And they were like, I don't believe you, they must be part of the government or something. COOL RIGHT? LIKE ROYALTY. HAHA

We then went to some water resort. It was pretty but kinda dirty but it had waterfall. We could soak our feet in there. Nothing much happen. Except I lost the camera's casing. Thank god, daddy didnt get mad. After that we headed to the volcanoes! Pretty okayyyy. But there were many people selling gifts and souveniers and they bombarded us like mad. We couldn't even enjoy the scenary that much. Went for lunch at some Indonesian restaurant, it was really nice. It's like, you can have whatever you like you know. We enjoyed a traditional performance by some kids. If was funny and cute. Cos there were some parts performed by kids. Yeah.

After that, we went shopping. Yeah I bought, a few dresses. We went dinner at some resort on top of the hill. It was so steep. The bus had trouble driving up. It was very dangerous. But we soon got up there. It was gorgeous okay. Because we were having dinner on top of the hills! We could look outside and enjoy beautiful scenary. Very pretty. There was barbecued food and stuff. And then, when it came to my cousin giving out a few speeches, he said, the next holiday, he's gonna organise, and we're all going to GOLD COAST AUSTRALIA! Yey.

Day 1 Indonesia

I arrived in KL to meet with my other relatives staying here. We all travelled to Indonesia, Bandung together from KLIA. We arrived around noon but yeah Indonesia is one hour slower. Well, It was sooo cool cos when we arrived there, we treated like, ROYALTY. Really.

At the airport, there was a banner. WELCOME RAZAK FAMILY! Razak is my grandfather's name.

Yeah. And the tour guide, they put a piece of cloth around your neck once you arrive. Cool huh?We went straightaway for lunch as soon as we get there. Traffic was a killer though. After lunch, we checked in the hotel. We stayed at the five star hotel Sheraton Bandung.

After checking in, there were 3 things you can do. 1. Stay at the hotel to rest 2. Go shopping 3. Spa! So yeah. of course, I went to the spa. We went to Roger's Spa and Salon. That's where all the celebrities go. Yeah true enough we did bump into one major celebrity in Indonesia. If you catch the tv show, Bawang Putih Bawang Merah. That guy. Well, I'm not really a fan of him but he acted in the tv show Hikmah as well, as Adrian's younger brother. Yeah. I'll show you pictures my brother took with him.

So yeah, the spa was soooo good. And I CUT MY HAIR. Haha!!! The only person I told was Ashik. Yeah, not even Fate and Fatin. You just take a look at me when I get back. Hahaha. We had dinner at the Roger's Lounge. It's kinda like a bar. It has blue lights and karaoke and everything. Family was just awesome la. Pictures! It would show you how cool it was.

Shortest Date ever

Todayyy, HAHA. Remember how I've said I didn't want to fall in love?

Well NOOOOO, I'm not in love.

But I had the shortest mini mini mini date ever.

I met Fatin and Hafiz first at Dhoby Ghaut and Hafiz was teasing me that I'm gonna meet up with a bouncer later. Ah ah seh, I never thought I would make friends with a Bouncer. Lagi lagi kat St James. I club there A LOT.

Then we met Fate. We all went to LJS for dinner. Sufardi was suppose to arrive earlier. But he was late?

So I said, it's okay, because since I am leaving tomorrow, I want to see this guy again before I leave. This guy I've been calling and texting.

After LJS, Hafiz left to meet his girlfriend. Fatin, Fate and Lis went to Subway to buy their Subway cookie!

Finally Sufardi texted me saying he was gonna arrive but he only had like what, 15 minutes? I said, Nvm. I just wanna see his face again. Because I kinda don't remember him clearly because it was dark and crowded the first time I met him.

So I talked to him. Well okay la, I don't know. He's a really nice guy. But I don't think he's my type? But then again, opposite attracts. But I repeatedly tell myself. Don't fall in love. You usually cry when you're in love.

After 15 minutes of talking to him, he had to go. Shit, he was amazing. Like, funny and fun and fun and friendly. We're just friends la Lisssssssssssssssssssssssssss. Sorry, I really bukan nak shiok sendiri, but just...well, cautious. Cautious with every guy I talk to.

Fatin came back to my place and we chatted. Andandand. If a guy is not interested, they won't call. But Sufardi still called me after meeting me just now. Oh boy, I don't wanna fall in love.

But this one, this Sufardi, my friends says he's cute. 7/10. They like his body. Whatever, I wasn't even looking at his looks. I was more of interested whether I could click with him. And can laaa, he made me laugh.

Apa-apa lah. I'm leaving for Malaysia and Indonesia.

Sick

I'm sick. I don't wanna blog much.

Love,

L/L/L

Fatin is sick too.

Love,

L.

My bestfriend and I are both sick. No wonder we are bestfriends. Fatin and I are both sick. Fatin has a boyfriend to take care of her. I have no one.

Drunk Dialled

HAHA.

I was feeling so fucked up today.

I fought with my mum. So I called Fatin up, I wanna see her. I was in the bus and said loudly, I was stress. Lets drink.

I said that a little too loud, and therefore checked to see whether there were any makciks in tudungs around, and shitfcuk, Fatin's mum was at the back. I called Fatin up, almost peeing in my pants. I was like, FCuk. your mum was at the back when I was speaking to you. Do you think she heard when I said, LETS DRINK? HAHAHA.

She called her mum, and thankfully her mum didnt say anything.

And thankfully her mum ain't going straight home. So we had the house to ourselves.

I bought Jim Bean and we turned on loud music and we got really high and danced in her room. I think Sufardi texted me, I said to him, I would text him later cos I'm with my friend now. Honestly, I think Sufardi is too nice. Like, I never thought someone like him would be texting me. Surprise, he is even interested to get to know me. I do find him attractive, but I don't think I want to get to know any boys right now. The last thing I need is another heartbreak. Because, that's what boys do, they make you laugh but they make you cry too. I don't want another relationship with all these crying moments. Though, I think Sufardi might be different? AHHHH dunnooooo all I know is I texted him, I will text him later when I get back.

I was drunk. We were drunk. We drunk dialled Sarah and told her my fcukscapades. HAHA. Bodoh ah tu perempuan. Seriously. Darah up siak pikir kan dier. Bodoh nyer sundal. Seriously. I am so angry. After we got sober, gosh our head hurts.

I forgot to text Sufardi, but he text me! This boy is getting interesting. (:

I think for this post, I'll label it under LOVE. Because, there is Sufardi in it. Sufardi's name is in it. Aiyahhh but I don't want to shiok sendiri ah. Sekali, he really just wants to be friends with me. Paiseh siak.

Quantum of Solace

I went to watch Quantum of Solace. The new James Bond movie with Sharif.

I went home early to catch the Arsenal VS Man United match. Arsenal won 2-1. Yey!

Ashik lost the bet, AGAIN! He said he was fuming mad. He didnt move from his couch til like a few minutes after the game. Arsenal's Samir Nasri was power la.

Final Exam Day

Ooohh today was final exam day.

The night before, I studied like MAD. Mad as in, never talk to Ashik online mad. Haha. But I remember I had so many distractions last night. Hehe, Sufardi called me. I actually didn't talk to Ashik but spent like 30 minutes with Sufardi, when I have exam the next day. Sufardi sounded nice. But yeah hey, whatever Lis, don't fall in love.

Oh! I did text and call Ashik earlier on but after that his mummy used his cell to call SG and he couldn't contact me. Umms, I remember texting Sharif, Fatin, Andi, Ian, Farhanah and more people. It was like super mad but YET, I managed to memorize and answered my exam questions pretty well.

If I were to wake up really early, I would text Ashik good morning and I did. But yeah, credits low so he couldn't reply. Andi texted me though saying he's finally back home from work. I replied him. So I was expecting a reply either from Ashik saying he has topped up or Andi. But I got a text from my ex, Praba saying good luck for your exams today. Shocker. He never once wished me luck for my exams before/during/after relationship til today.

My mum, she like, cannot stay at home in peace. Early in the morning, she's like banging on my door like Lisaaaaaa, hurry you will be late for exams. I said okay. She did it like for about 5 times, I finally said. Mummy. I know what time to leave and everything, can you just please stop banging my door every 5 mins at 8 in the morning. Haha. Well I was actually taking a long time cos I was thinking of what to wear. Yup I was too tired last night to prepare my outfit for the next day. I'm the type of person that has to prepare tmr's outfit the night before so I won't be late. But I didn't last night.

My sister was kinda awake due to my mum's loud bangs. My sister said, each time I open my eyes, I see you in a different dress. I was singing this song, "You, change your mind, like a girl change her clothes."I was kinda late already so I asked my maid pack some fried bee hoon in a tupperware so I can eat along the way. I was eating along the way and I saw the bus. I shut the tupperware and put the fork in my mouth cos I needed to take out my wallet. I totally forgot that the bloody fork was in my mouth. -.-people in the bus were staring at me like why the hell does she have a fork in her mouth. Oh I was eating in the bus, and this malay girl actually said, "eh sedap nyer budak india sebelah aku makan mee" I was like........................"NAK?!"

During exams, at times, I got sidetrack. But it didn't affect me or anything la. I remembered of how Sarah would always touch Praba in front of me and how I told myself to just get used to it. You know, Sarah said to Praba, you don't know sometimes these girls they have a secret crush on you. WHEN I HEARD THAT, I WAS LIKE, OF COURSE SARAH KNOWS BASED ON EXPERIENCE WHAT. SHE HAD A SECRET CRUSH ON A GUY WHO WAS IN A 1 YEAR RELATIONSHIP. BOYFRIEND-STEALER. Seriously, I hope she loses all her teeth ah that medusa.

And then, I got happyyyy thinking of Ashik! Haha. Our funny funny conversations! I was thinking of how he would take pictures and there would be some joker at the back. And how I really wanna have ice cream with him one day. Then I continued my exams. Didnt affect me la.

I bought a gorgeous butterfly pendant necklace. It's really prettyyyy sangat! After exams, Farhanah and I went to Ikea area. I went to Alexandra Hospital to visit my dentist. I'm pretty shock on this, doesn't everyone visit their dentist once every 6 months? Well I went for polishing and scaling and everything. The whole process lasted for about less than 15 minutes but I paid like such a bomb for the dentist to brush my teeth. I take care of my teeth so I don't lose it like how Sarah gonna is one day. Okay after that I met Farhanah at Ikea. We bought hotdogs and ICE CREAM! and BROWNIE! so yummy. Then farhanah left. I went to Anchor Point! OMG. GOT SHOE SALE AT CHARLES AND KEITH! I WENT CRAZYYYYY. I bought a pair of gorgeous gorgeous red heels. I was late to meet Lee and Fate.

I met them and I was like, I'm sorry is getting so caught up shopping for shoes a good excuse to be late? Haha. They were like, OKAY! I love those two. So we went to pizza hut for lunch and we shared the latest juiciest gossip. We made many many plans for the future. As in, one day we will go to California must visit the OC beach, New Zealand to catch Rugby World Cup. More upcoming plans would be, next week we would all go for a spa and a massage. And in December we would go to KL, so we could enjoy my cousin's luxury apartment and ride in big cars, bentley, porsche, jaguar, chrysler. Besttt. But depends whether Lee would be in SG or not, if not I would go with my other friends. I'll definitely go. Partly because I wanna eat ice cream! Uh-huh. HAHA.

Okay we then went to Bukit Batok taking 106 there cos Lee wanted to get her Iphone. I'm gonna get it too so I went there to check it out as well. It was only $400 la. Cheap. But the pain in the ass thing is you have to change number. But that's okay. I'll only give it to deserving people! Haha.Then I went off to meet Dalia at Causeway point. We went to check out whether there were any worth movies to watch but no there isn't. I was certainly not going to spend 10 bucks on HSM3. So we went to Starbucks. But 5 mins after we sat down, mummy called me to get home cos she wants me to follow her somewhere. So I said to D, sorry a whole bunch. And left. When I got home, I found out mummy left without me cos I took a long time. So I went out again to Northpoint to shop. Went to Esprit and bought a blouse. It was nice but the kind that you only wear it if you have something really formal. Uh-huh.

I went home, got online and chatted with Ashik and Sharif. Planned time and place to meet him tmr. Sharif went off early to study. So I just chatted with Ashik. Okayyy I'mma gonna get some sleep. I cannot afford to be late tmr to meet that dude. Movie is at 2.10 and I'm meeting him at 2. Haha. I really don't wanna miss the first part of the James Bond Movie.

Spa

It was horrible okay. I mean woke up really early for exams. Exams were good; not tough. Uh-huh. Bought hot milo for breakfast. I love milo! After exams, all my friends had plans. I was really lonely. :/

Yeah, soooo I went shopping. I bought some tops and make up and clothes. Then I felt tired, I wanted a massage so I went to amore spa to get a massage. At times, it was damn painful okay. The lady is so small but she massaged me so tight. Omg lucky my face were facing down in that hole, cos if you had seen my facial expression. Omg. Haha. Signed up for 8 more sessions. So I just spent about 500 today. Die okay. Die. I'll be broke SOON. Actually, not really. Haha. I was really lonely laaaaaaaaaaaa.

Then I went to Taka, went inside LV, took a a great look on my bag, which I don't think I can get anytime soon because I just spent 500 today. -.-

uh-huh then went to kinokuniya bookstore to buy some books and magazines. Met up with Fate for awhile but she was with her other friends. So I left. Then Sharif texted me saying he doesn't mind joining lonely me. But I was already tired by then cos I woke up early this morning. So we were like okay some other time. Then I head home, fell asleep while turning on the laptop.

Haha, then I was awoken my Ashik's text so I went online and yeah chatted with him. I tell you, sometimes I laugh to myself chatting with him la. He's very funny and sometimes, I think we're both dumb that kinda thing. And and and I told him we think alike. Haha. I showed him videos today - rugby videos, haka, touch rugby videos and what else? Dunno, he say hakas are scary. -.- BE A MAN.

Medusa

I went home in the morning cos Fatin and Reza was coming over for lunch. They came over, we watched FRIENDS, and rugby and I got really tired and fell asleep.

Then they left cos Reza needed to get to work, and I need some sleep cos I was gonna head to Praba's sister's place, which is another formality that I just have to go.

Yeah another Diwali function. All his relatives were there, can you imagine how weird it is still being introduced as Praba's girlfriend. Which I'm NOT. Praba's girlfriend is Miss Medusa. Hahaha.

Halloween 08

Today's Halloween. I wanna party. I really do want to. But I have no costume. And I don't have anyone to go with. Who can I party with?!

I scrolled down my phone and heyyy I texted Kelly. She was heading to St James. So I got ready and left home around 10pm. On the way, Ian called me. And I just casually mentioned that I was heading to St James, and he was like, heyyy remember I told you I met a guy at BBDC and he works at St James as a bouncer, maybe I can help you get in free.

I was like....okayyy? After awhile, wahhh seriously, Ian passed me some bouncer's number. Haha! Free entry. Wow. But only me uhhh. So I texted this bouncer. Honestly, I'm pretty scared. Haha, I mean tonight must be a busy night cos it's halloween, then I disturb this bouncer. And bouncers are usually fierce and big. He said, his name was Andi. Okayyyy. Malayyyy. But some malay bouncers, really looks so gatal and creepy.HAHA. Since I club a lot, I have went through many incidents where stupid malay bouncers like to disturb me. Fcuk I hate it. I prayed this one would be Normal? Haha.

On the way, he kept texting me. Macam tak sabar jerr... But he was REALLY NICE in text la. Finally when I reached, I apologised I think because I'm taking too much of his time and disturbing him at work. He asked me to meet him at the smoking room near Boiler. But we met outside Boiler. He actually walked past me. And I was trying to read his name tag. It was Sufardi. Not Andi ehhh. But I called him, and he answered.

He turned out to be a very well-mannered proper gentleman. Not like those typical malay bouncer yang suka kacau I. And he was very pleasant looking. Not like those fierce bouncers. Action type of bouncers. I was like... Bagos, Ian kenal budak macam nie. HAHA. He was such a good looking nice bouncer unlike those at the other clubs, yuck. He was realllyyy nice. He took me to Powerhouse and got me the free stamp. Told me to take care and stuff. Even texted me after the party to make sure I'm okay. I was, well, surprised and impressed.

Kelly and friends went to Movida and music was really awesome. Kelly had pink wings on! So cute. It kinda was good too cosss I had access to everywhere with that stamp. Felt soooo priviledge hahaha. Oh I went to the Boiler Room as well, they played hiphop music with live bands. Really really awesome. I headed back to another friend's place that night. And we ordered Mcdonalds and watched FRIENDS. We fell asleep and I woke up around 10 the next day.

But last night, there were full of creeps ah, I got touched a lot. Felt like calling Sufardi. Haha, but shux, for what he wanna protect me, he doesn't even know me. But I'm like Ian's sister eyyy, And he's like Ian's buddy. Whatever. It's over. And I 'm fine.

Study

I studied. Information stayed inside. Yey.

Sigh it's only a Thursday.

Appendix

Sabrina went to the hospital. Appendix.

I gotta go. I'm worried.

Novena

I enjoyed today. I was with my Star bestfriend Fatin.

Bumped into Ayu.

Bumper into Ikram and Farah at Novena Square.

Fancy bumping into the ex and his girlfriend yo.

We had ice cream at mcdonalds. Hang out at Starbucks.

Blaaaa. My brother wants a vest. I went shopping.

Deepavali

Yes, it's Deepavali.

I went to Praba's place.

*rolls eyes.

Break up but still invited to ex boyfriend's family events.

Whatever la.

I don't feel like blogging.

I actually wore an Indian costume today. His family loves me alot.

Liverpool VS Chelsea

Today I woke up earlyyy. I played tennis with Sabrina and went for a mini run around the field. After all that, bought breakfast - prata and dosai. I only had 1 prata cos I didn't have much appetite in the morning.

After breakfast, read the Straits Times which is beginning to get really boring again cos they don't have much reports on the financial crisis anymore. I went online chat with Ashik and Sharif. I was telling Sharif how sexyyyy it was to dance to Neyo - Miss Independant at a club. OMG yes sexyyy okayyy. Then he asked me, if I were to choose who to dance with, who would it be? Ashik or Shahid? Haha! I burst out laughing kayy. HAHA. what a question. I said I would pick Ashik cos I know him better than I know Shahid. But as if, Ashik wanna dance with me eh? I dont think I can take Ashik seriously as well, he's so cheeky and you know I would just, laugh. But overall, he's a great guy.

Then we all had to go off cos Ashik's relatives came over and he has two little cousins that would not stop bothering him. Sharif was going on for a match which he invited me to but I said maybe next time cos, I felt tired. Also, I was thinking to head down to Tekka just now to get stuff. But Praba's nephew, Vishnu suddenly called me and I found out they were over at Tekka too! So I asked his sister to get me what I wanted.

Umms yeah, I watch 3 matches today. Rugby World Cup March 08 - Scotland VS France. France won. I forgot the score. Australia VS New Zealand. NZ did a haka! Australia won though. That took up my whole afternoon. Earlier on, I complained to Ashik I was tired so he suggested I take a nap. Turns out, I didn't but he did. =_=

After watching the rugby matches, I went online again to talk to Ashik. We went off after awhile promising each other we would come back online after the LIVERPOOL VS CHELSEA GAME. Then I was on the phone for an hour with Praba's sister, called to talk about Deepavali plans. Then I spoke to Krishna! Haha! I FOUND OUT HIS PLAYING IN A SOCCER TEAM. HOW ADORABLE! He told me all about his soccer training how it was tough for him to do 5 push ups. His brother Vishnu, I found out wanna take up piano lessons. My my, these boys are gonna grow up scoring with a lot of hot chicks la. Well, they're really nice those young boys plus his mum and sister. I'm really glad the break up didn't affect us one bit. I got really attached to them. Because, they're the nicest boyfriend's family. Only the boyfriend is a jerk.

Oh then it was time for the soccer match! Liverpool VS Chelsea. Well, overall Liverpool won - 1 Nil. yeah baby yeah. Ashik called me during half time he was like... Hey okay okay I support Liverpool, you and me against Sharif. After the referee finally blow the final whistle, he called me again. He said, I'm not gonna make any bets against you anymore. You always win. Yeyyy Ashik! I always win you.We both went online, first thing Ashik said was, Our team won man. Haha. Pfft. He said he felt really good seeing Lampard's face after being defeated and Lampard was the first few to go inside the tunnel. Boy, he really hates Lampard. Haha

My Favourite Mistake

I found this. And it got me thinking.

Physical Attraction; Chemical Reaction

Before we were doctors, we were med students which meant we spend a lot of time of studying chemistry. Organic chemistry, biochemistry, we learned it all. But when you're talking about human chemistry only one thing matters: either you've got it or you don't.

Yeah, Chemistry either you've got it or you don't. To me, that's the most important thing in a relationship.

Karma. One way or another it will leave us to face ourselves. We can look our karma in the eye or we can wait for it to sneak up from behind. But karma will always find us. The truth is, as surgeons, we have more chances than most to set the balance in our favor. Yet no matter how hard we try we can't escape our karma. It follows us home. I guess we can't really complain about our karma. It's not an affair. It's not unexpected. It just... evens the score. And even when we're about to do something that we know will tempt karma to bite us in the ass... well, it goes without saying. We do it anyway.

You'll never be alone. Four hundred years ago, another English guy had an opinion on being alone. John Donne. He thought we were never alone. Of course it was fancier when he said it. No man is an island entire onto himself. Boil down that island talk and he just means that all anyone needs is someone to step in and let us know we're not alone. And who's to say that someone can't have four legs. Someone to play with, or run around with, or just hang out.

Make Fun of P Day

Today I woke up kinda late cos I was up talking to Ashik late last night. Umms, yeah, he told me to sleep early cos at times he'll go offline, play game(winning eleven), check his email then he goes to sleep at 3am and he'll still see me online. I asked him, who would actually check their email at 3am, like cannot wait til tmr? He replied, 'me.' weirdo right this boy. He says he receives all those junk emails at that time in the morning, he'll get an email from Petronas saying he just won a million bucks la bla bla. I was like...o-kayyy. He called me this morning for a short chat yeah.

So yeah Fatin came over to my place this morning to collect her sleeping bag. Class got cancelled so I thought of going tuition while Fatin meets Reza. So yeah, after tuiton, met up with Fate and Fatin at Causeway point. I had a great time okay today. Because today is make fun of Praba day!
We met up at Burger King. At burger king, we saw this Indian girl. She was wearing this top that shows off her belly. Well, she is skinny. As skinny as Praba! The skinny legs. Don't you all just remember his skinny legs? So we were like...so that's how Praba would look like if he was a girl! Plus she had curly hair. Just like Praba's original hair. And she had teeth like him too. If you never noticed it before, look closer at his mouth while his talking to you.

We went Banquet for late late lunch/early early dinner. Haha. All 3 bought cockles fried kway teow(is that how you spell it?) We were sharing Russell Peters jokes. Funny man. His damn funny. We saw this guy, OMG he looked like justin. Seriously we were all looking at him. He noticed and kinda started showing off. pfft, boys. So that's Justin's clone, we've met Reza's clone -this guy who has hair and face and body structure like him. AND WE'VE MET PRABA'S CLONE. It's some foreign Indian worker who boarded the train at Little India. Yeah, he looks exactly like Praba when he didn't do his hair. Serious. His eyes, face structure, EVEN THE CROOKED NOSE, they both got it. We were like eeyer Praba, haha.

Oh at Banquet I was drinking water from Fate's bottle. It's the kind that you squeeze and shoot it in your mouth. I drank some but I actually took out the bottle cap and didnt twist it tightly after drinking. When Fate wanted to drink it, she squeeze the bottle, all the water splashed out onto her face/top. It even splashed to the person sitting next to her. Sorry Fate, wasn't on purpose. But it was nice to accidently prank you. I learnt that from Ashik. Hah!

After Banquet, I treated the girls to Gelare. We snapped pictures there. We had waffles ice cream! Yummy. Haha so we were choosing our ice cream; there was this one called 'chocolate overloaded.' I said to the girls, 'I don't know why but this reminds me of Praba.' Seriously! It was so dark and looks a little rough. They were like eewww. But they still picked that flavour to go on the waffles. So waffles came. Then we were like, (this came out naturally okay), this doesn't look like Praba? HAHA. We meant, The chocolate suddenly doesn't look like Praba. Then we checked it was the other chocolate flavour. Not chocolate overloaded! They started eating it and I asked, 'does it taste like Praba?' they were like, we should be asking YOU. Haha. Well no it doesnt, cos firstly it wasnt chocolate overloaded=praba. But still we made comments like, 'eh be careful praba's dripping onto your shirt. or finish eating praba okay. or you have some praba on your mouth.' haha.

Haha, also just now I don't know why instead of calling him Praba, I called him Para. My friends burst out laughing la. Haha. His real name is Prabahgaran but its wrongly registered at Parabakaran. So I was saying that he wanted to change his name ever since he was in army but didnt have time/greens. Then my friends said, why don't you play a prank on him, you change his name for him so he'll be stuck with a weird name for quite some time. She was like, from Parabakaran to ParabaGaran or maybe you add an A or what.

Then I said, Huh, then become... ParabakaranA. Parabakarana!!! Haha. We burst our laughing la.

After Gelare we went to Civics Centre and then to Woodlands Stadium. On the way there, I accidenly said, 'can cross the road already la deyy' then my friends was like...she said...'deyyy' then one friend said, wow, you have a 'praba' in you. Haha.

We went to Woodlands Stadium. Oh cos, I wanted to do my 2.4km run there. So after running, we talked about gigs and then they asked how come TNI hasn't been performing or anything? I said Praba said he's sorta taking a break from music, waiting for TNI's EP to be released. Then dunno how, one of my friends said, maybe when he gets bored of his guitar he can play the "SITAR' HAHAHAHAHA. Sitar- a musical instrument usually played by Indians for Indian traditional songs. Yeah so when Praba gets bored of his guitar he can play the sitar on stage. Oh! I used to be the girl on the guitar. Sarah can be the girl on the SITAR. Haha. Anyways, I have a picture of a man playing the Sitar! Sarah on a Sitar, La la la.

Oh then, I asked Fate to brush my hair cos it was too long I couldnt reach to the back. I said, 'fun right brushing my hair, even Praba likes it, I'll watch youtube and he'll brush my hair til it gets soft and straight.' I added, 'can you imagine Praba brushing Sarah's hair? HAHA. He brush once, it will go TOINK, cos its curly. Brush some more, it'll go TOINK TOINK TOINK. After 3 hours, he'll go okay I'm tired it'll never be as straight as Lis's. Sorry. Hahahahaha.'

On the way back to train station, I was singing the pussycat doll songs.'When I grow up' I said, I told Praba this is his song, when he grows up he wants to be famous; a star. Then they were like can you imagine Praba with his panty hose and hair extensions, singing, Don't you wish your girlfriend was hot like me. HAHA. Confirm hot, for a transverstite. Haha. Praba in Pussycat Dolls!

We reached the station and when our separate ways. I called Ashik to tell him about what I did to Fate and about my day. Yeah, he told me that he sent me offline messages and a friendster comment. See, he's nice. I went home and chatted more with him online. I learnt that he's an uncle to a 2 year old girl in Brunei. Haha. Oh! And he sent me a picture of his 'school bag' which looked like a briefcase, cos the place that he goes to school for is such a formal thing such that he has to wear formal wear each day. I told him to snap a picture. I wanna see whether he can pass of as a handsome rich business tycoon or maybe he'll look like a young boy tryin' to act cool. He said, next wednesday. Haha. Got specific day siaaa.

For a playful cheeky boy, Ashik is quite smart. Well according to his o levels results la. I told him how I wanna study til Masters. He said good, he likes people who are ambitious. Haha. Well. I'm going to send him some offline messages cos he's gonna wake up at 3 later for a soccer match and yes that boy, will check his emails, I guess

Just Got better

Wahhttt a dayy... Okay. I woke up late which leaves me no time for breakfast so the usual orange juice thats all. I had a presentation today so I had to look smart but later on I wanted to go running so heck it, I wore a sleeveless top and jeans. Haha.

I wanted to alter my jeans cos it's kinda baggy now. So I went to the alteration shop before school. The aunty was like, this one cannot alter already. Then I dunno WHY but she whispered, ehh you go that shop there, the jeans there, the cutting very nice. $5 only. You alter $8. Save your money. I was like...o-kay.

Umms, before I board 855 I managed to buy the Straits Times. Yeah, I need to read that plus listen to my Ipod. And heyy today I was early for school okay! We had to present regarding social networking websites. During break, Farhanah, Pretty and I we had lunch at the canteen. We didnt buy siew mai todayyy. Cos we had rice.

We took the shuttle bus from school to the train station. We were in the bus, suddenly the bus driver took a different turn. I was like shitt am I in the wrong bus or what. (cos they have buses that goes to the Tampines, Jurong) I was like, please don't get me to Tampines. Pretty was like, shitt maybe we should hijack the bus? pfft. pretttyyyy. -.-

But hey, suddenly we're in front of the train station. Don't know what tricks the bus driver had in mind. Umm yeah in the train, there was these two indian girls. The way they talk. It sounded like interesting gossip I tell you. So i lean back, to you know, eavesdrop. BUT she talks like this.. 'You know what that girl said....She said...(THEN SHE SPEAKS IN TAMIL) and then she continues in english...'then i replied to her....'(AGAIN SHE SPEAKS IN TAMIL) so basically the hot gossip was in TAMIL. She only uses English to speak the non-interesting words. -.-

She ended the story with.... I told her...okay fine whatever. That's all I understood. -.-

So yeah I went tuition cos Noah's mum says he's got lots of specimen paper to finish. I was very tired by then. But I couldn't not go running right. So I brought my lazy ass to Yishun stadium and did my 2.4km run. Omg, tiring man. But yeah, it feels good to run. Inside especially. After everything sighhh.I went home feeling so tireddd. Perspiring and all sweaty. Things haven't been going so good lately. But it just got better! Yummy.

Weekend Trip

Today, Daddy woke me up at 10am. He was like, the aircon repairmen are here. He was like hurry hurry they're downstairs and wanna go inside your room. I don't know why Daddy have these aircon guys coming over to check the bloody aircon you know. Each time they come Daddy pays a few hundreds. And it's not as if the aircon is spoil or something. It works perfectly fine okay. He just wants to waste money but he pretends saying that oh its important to make sure its not dirty and gives out polluted cold air. He actually said, polluted cold air.

So then, I woke up. I didn't know where to go. He kicked me out of my own room, I asked can I go to Mummy or Danial's room? He said nooo they're cleaning all the aircon. I couldn't go down cos the aircon men were downstairs. So I dunno la, I went inside the toilet. I was still sleepy. I dunno what happened for the next 15 mins, I realise my toothbrush was inside my mouth when I woke up. DID I JUST ATTEMPTED TO BRUSH MY TEETH WHILE SLEEPING? Creepyyy okayyy.

Boys, you so don't want to sleep next to me. Or you want to? Haha. Well the answer is no, you cannot sleep next to me. But come to think of it, I don't really know my sleeping habits. I'm not sure whether my ex-boyfriends notices. Awww you know it would be nice, if my next boyfriend notices and while we're in the middle of a romantic moment or something la eh, he would say... I like the way... you... snore in your sleep...(okay that's not romantic but ewww I dunno la, if my future boyfriend(you don't even know whether you're actually my future boyfriend), you're reading this, remember what I think is nice okayy, but not the snoring one okayyy, it will just kill the mood. Or if you still wanna say it,okay! tease me boy, I like teases. Say it in the sexiest wayy. Roar. (I think that was meant to be sexy, or no?) uhh okay.

Oh then. I spend my afternoon reading the Straits Times and watching FRIENDS on starworld. Then help mummy to bake some cookies. She's going to a dinner party the potluck sort. Just in case you don't know what's potluck - everyone has to bring a dish to the party. They always do that in Desperate Housewives you know. Susan will bring drinks(cos she can't cook at al). Lynette - Main Dish. Gabrielle - Side dish. Bree - Desert. Yeah so mummy had that sort of thing going on. I helped her bake. Well, if you know me well, you'll always know what 'baking' and me have something going on.

After that, I got ready to meet Fate & the rest to catch a gig at Youth Park - Weekend Trip. The first few bands weren't that nice. But HELL YEAH, THE GREAT SPY EXPERIMENT was REALLY REEALLY FCUKKINNGG AWESOME. Fatin, Reza, Harith, Luqman and his other friends were there as well. TGSE - they had this lightning guitar strap. A guitar strap holds a guitar. If you buy a guitar strap using YOUR OWN green, YOUR OWN green is holding your guitar. In the case that someone elses buys it FOR YOU, a guitar strap, then someone elses green is holding your guitar for you. So I think you should save up and buy your own guitar strap, don't allow others to buy for you. Ask yourself guitarists, did you buy your own guitar strap? Now, you may also wonder why I'm babbling A WHOLE LOT about this. (:

I cant remember much about the gig, except that I bumped into 5 OLD APEKSS today. I'm sorry I certainly hope that's not offensive. But okay the first one, he was a cleaner. He didn't even budge when I elbowed him. He just stood there staring at me. Omg. Then after another 5 mins, I bumped into another old chinese guy, he was carrying food. This one said, Sorry ah sorry. Okay, Then the third one, was in the train. He was so old, but he kept on walking past everyone til like the last cabin. There were people who offered him seats but he politely rejected them then..he soon alighted. Oh he bumped into me while he was walking past me. The fourth one was a few train stops later there was a chinese man his phone was ringing and he wanted to take it out from his pocket, but his elbow elbowed me. Hmmm yeah. Then the fifth one was in the bus, I was sitting down la. He wanted to sit next to me. But ummm yeah, bus made a sharp turn and this time HE didn't bump into me. HIS WALKING STICK HIT ME. Alamak, angry sial. But he was old. Don't judge me okay. It was painful to have a walking stick hit you. I can hit you with one if you wanna feel it.

Harith told me. Since I keep bumping into chinese people, it's a sign my next boyfriend would be Chinese. HAHA. Cos, I dated a Malay and an Indian. Next will be Chinese. I don't think they're my type though. Besides, I'm.... honestly, I am a punjabi/bengali girl. So I wanna find someone who can speak Hindi... HAHA no laaa. but yeah, I understand Hindi, and it's an interesting language. Tamil is okay too but Tamil too difficult la. No, I'm not anti Indians. Oh come on, my closest friends in school, they're both Indian. This one friend that I mostly share my crappy jokes and crappy/lame stories -Ashik, he's Indian. I'm not anti Indian. Oh plus, PRABA IS AN INDIAN WAHT. sheeshhh. And his family, they're all really lovely people, and they're all Indian and each time I go to a family gathering, everyone speaks Tamil. Can you imagine? And they all talk at the same time! But I'm still always there for each family gathering So I'm not anti - Indian okay!

I realise I'm babbling a lot this post. Stress uhh about school. :/ dunno where to study and which school to continue studying. SG/LONDON/AUSTRALIA? Plus..a few more things that happened. I don't wanna share. Cos I don't wanna remember. Cos the things that made you smile, makes you cry. Boo hoo.I watched soccer just now. Damnn it I got sleepy after first half. Score was both nil. Rooney did score a goal but I think it was offside. I'm sleepy. Gonna get some sleep. I think. Or maybe stay up to watch Russell Peters/Grey's Anatomy/FRIENDS/24/Desperate Housewives.

4th's a charm?

I went to school with a big bag plus my shoe bag cos I have rugby training later on in the evening. Okayy today super relax day at school cos lecturer was just giving tips for exams. It starts at 1:30pm but I came at 2pm. Lecturer was writing down questions on the whiteboard and he said I'll give you half and hour to look for the answers. Then he left class.

Haha, Farhanah and I took this opportunity and went to the canteen to get some food. Cos we're those people that don't breakfast. Cos we wake up very late haha. We went back to class at 2:30pm. Lecturer explained the questions til 3pm. Then he said, okay break time til 3:30pm. Then he explained a little more til 4pm and class ended! Haha. Super moron day at class today right? But it ain't like that uhh other days. On other days, there's like tutorial and blablabla.

Umms. Farhanah, Diyana and I hung out in school til 5pm. Til Lee called me and told me she was outside school already. Oh yeah, Shafiq's dad was driving and they came to pick me up from school for training at old PA. Training was fun. It felt sooooooo great to run! Running around the field for 3 rounds not enoughhh laaa. It was sooo good to get air.

After training, I just wanted to go home. I have a direct bus from Old PA straight to Yishun uhhh. So like.... fast right. Kayyy then. I waited for the first bus for 15 mins, finally it came, I stood up to carry my bag and shoe bag, I turned, the bus driver just drove past me! I was like waving my hand frantically like one bloody moron. I SAW PEOPLE IN THE BUS LAUGHING AT ME OKAYYY! OMGGGG. I rolled my eyes and went back to the seat. Looked around, no one was there, I shouted, AM I INVISIBLE OR WHAT YOU BLIND BUS DRIVER?!!!! arghh then yeah I felt really dumb cos I realised I was talking/mumbling to myself. I called Ashik, haha, but no answer, prolly busy or something, so I called Farhanah to complain and whine to her! Then... the second bus came 15 MINS LATER. IT DIDN'T STOP OKAYY COS IT WAS TOO CROWDED. I was like SHEESHHH. You would think after a crowded bus arrived, there would be an empty bus tagging at the back. But NOOOOO, I waited for another 15 mins, Shuts Eyes! The 3rd bus ALSO CROWDED LA. I SEE PEOPLE IN THE BUS LAUGHING AT ME SIAAAA. I called Fatin up and I told her my situation and I was like, okay I'm so gonna take cab. She said, don't give up maybe the 4th one is a charm. I was like fcukk it la haha. Then I took 980, it goes to Sembahwang. I thought from there I could take train la. After a few stops, I saw there was another bus that goes to Yishun as well. So I alighted and took that bus home. In the bus, I really needed to pee! Always like that you know, need to pee in the bus. Finally I'm damn home and typing this post.

A few other stuff has been happening and it ain't good. I wanna disappear can.

School

I had to wake up slightly earlier to be in school by noon. I was on the phone while walking to school from the bus stop, Seriously, I was just walking, I don't know how. But yeah, I.... Fell. It was so embarrassing. I shut my eyes, opened and walked hurriedly to school. Cos all eyes were on me. Sheesh. Pain, okayyyy! -----

After all that happened, I met Pretty and told her I was hungry. But we were late. So I gobbled my food down really fast and we went to the E-Hub. After awhile, my tummy hurts cos I ate too fast. I felt like a moron. With my aching tummy and sort of sprained ankle.

At 2pm we went to class and I gossipped(is there such word?) with Farhanah. Haha. And we're all addicted to Siew Mai okayyyyy! Haha there was one day Farhanah bought 9! Siew Mai. Haha. Its damnn addictive.

After class I went tuition. Haha once again those kids are a laugh. You knowww, cos Josh finished his PSLE, so I'm left with teaching Noah. But I asked Josh to on his laptop and then we watched funny videos online. Haha. Okayyy then I taught Noah. But Noah also wasn't serious la. He had this fake dracula and rabbit teeth and he had it on while I was teaching him. I can't even take him seriously.

I left tuition but I didnt wanna go home so early. Sooooo I went shoppingggg at Watsons! Haha. I bought nonsense okay. I bought feet scrub la, hand scrub la, face lotion la, facial cleanser la, female boxers la, facial cotton la, hairband, party feet heel cushion la, nail hardener la, flight socks la(for indonesia trip), sleeping masks and dental floss! Hahaha. I loveee Watsons. I went John Little after that, just to look around. Spent too much at Watsons la. Haha.

I spent my night watching Russell Peters videos! Funny la sehhhhhhhhhhh.

Be A Potato Couch

People!

WATCH FRIENDS OKAYYYY.

If you're sad, watch FRIENDS, it will sooo cheer you up.
If you're happy, watch FRIENDS you'll get even happier.
Regardless of waht your emotions are, watch FRIENDS.
Watch with everyone, anyone! Haha.
Go watch short videos at youtube too-

1. the UNAGI collaboration
2. Phoebe's smelly cat song
3. holiday song
4. holiday armadillo
5. ross playing keyboard
6. ross playing bagpipe.
7. ross n monica's dance routine.

THERE'S A LOT MORE. Go watch at http://www.watchfriends.net/

Accomplishments

Okay I hate waking up late. Really. I wanna wake up early. When I told Ashik, that I have to wake up early at 10am, he was like.....you call that early? What he meant was, that's late already. And he's right. It's late. By the time I wake up, millions of human beings are already out there and probably have accomplished and finished millions of tasks. Some would be already having their second meal of the day, which is lunch!

There are just so many things you can do in the day. I don't think you should sleep in for too long and waste precious time=money. I know some people who just simply sleep til 3 or 4 pm and go out and come home and do stupid stuff like playing games and then sleep in the early morning like 3am. Can you believe that? He leads such a #@$#%#^&^%* life.

Today, I read the papers. I took an hour reading the papers because I read every single article and I underline words I don't understand and write it down in my handy dandy notebook. Nerd right? Yeah I know. Haha. Yes. I carry a notebook around and, it has a lot of questions/queries in it. Like today's questions/queries were - How does fungi actually grow on buildings and are green in colour? Why do onions make you cry? How does bruises work? And I read up on Barack Obama. His middle name is Hussein! So its Barack Hussein Obama.

Talking about USA, OMG on their financial meltdown. The world, I think might be coming to an end with all these problems. Like there is also a new disease "chikunguya" is it? (Forgive me if it's the wrong spelling) yeah these days, everything is like poison like that. Plus that China milk nonsense. And Australia havent been producing enough greens for their country, So if you were to go to the money changer, they would either sell you at such a ridiculous rate or they'll say they have run out of it.

So anyways, spend your days well and always ask yourself, What have I accomplished today? I know I have accomplished a lot today. (:

Piano

I woke up around 11:30am cos classes were scheduled to be at 1:30pm. But still I was late. I reached school around 2pm. Fortunately, lecturer ignored the part where I stepped into class searching for my friends frantically.

It was suppose to be til 4:30 but lecturer said he has a tummy ache so he released us at 4pm. Pretty, Farhanah and I hung around school buying junk food and slowly walked to the train station. I didn't wanna go home that early. Called Dalia, but she didn't answer cos she was sleeping. Ian called and told me to meet him. I was like Okay!

I went over to his place, he thinks he's so sexy eh walking around in his boxers. Cos he was about to bathe. Uhhh, but I treat Ian as a younger brother and I haven ever got around to his house because all those years I know him, I was in a relationship. So yey, once again congratulations on my break-up! I get to do things I haven gotten around to do. Uhhh so yeah, Rudy and his friend, Fiza was there. They were playing the piano! Impressive siaaaa Rudy. He said he learnt it from Norman, I am so gonna make Norman teach me the piano. Just now Rudy and I played The Iris by Goo Goo Dolls. Yey. He play I sing, familiar? Ahhh yes. (:

Ian got ready and we left and hung out at Yew Tee mrt station. Then omg, I was so doinkdoink okay. I took the wrong train and ended up in Jurong omg! Cos I was like going up the escalator, I saw the train come, I was so happy cos it wasn't crowded. I even got a seat and was actually so proud of myself la for boarding the train at like a right timing bla bla bla. Congratulate myself for getting a seat. After awhile, I started thinking, why the hell am I here man? So yeah...... slenger cannn. I took the right train home.I'm gonna go now. Go watch Grey's Anatomy. I am addicted to it.

And oh! now now, boy, you have to learn how to get yourself addicted.

Neccessity

This is a necessary sacrifice post. Yuck...............

I used to be so angry and stuff about the whole Praba cheating on me with his vocalist Sarah. And well, like everyone, I called both of them names bla bla bla. I even called Sarah - PIG. Haha. Of course he doesn't think she's a pig. She certainly doesn't look like one. She's pretty. Really pretty. And I always say to this to Praba, I'm sure she's great and everything but you lost someone as awesome as me. Okay yes, we always say be humble. But that's just a way to bring yourself up, you know? You say these words when you're about to cry especially after you had such a brilliant relationship and suddenly Praba blurts out he has a secret thing for that pig, oops I mean Sarah.

Oh yeah, sure Praba was a loser towards to the end, real huge jerk/bastard haha whatever names you wanna call the person that cheated on you. But I have to add that well we didn't break up cos, we couldn't click/commit/agree/get along, hate each other or whatever stories you guys cook up.

The reason I'm even wasting time and post and energy on this is because people seem to think that I somehow mistreated him or worst, I was the one who cheated on him, cos they see me with another guy outside. Reminder: Praba. Eh no, Rudy is with Sarah out there probably holding hands. She doesn't even call him his real name. And most of you too. So just bloody mind your own business and stay out of this.

My friend Ryan almost got into a fight yesterday because people out there thinks he's going on a scandal with me. Like we're the meanies that are cheating on Praba. It's that serious, yeah so I'm wasting all those things I mention up there for this. People? you can talk all you want really, I don't give a damn, just don't involve the people I'm hanging out with. Oh, don't involve the innocents. And hey, no violence please.I have to admit, when I felt like crap back then, I criticised, cursed and called them all sorts of name just to make myself feel better. Haha, there was this once, I said to Praba, you settled for something lesser, Praba repeatedly disagreed in such a tone, I didn't settle for anything lesser! A lot of times siaaa. Why suddenly so........ defensive boy? (:

Well to many maybe he didn't settle for something lesser - different people, different perspective. It's okay. I wasn't trying to boast. Just said that to make myself feel better. It wasn't easy but I've manage. That blurting out part? That made me feel completely crushed. It was as if Praba's giant foot had stomped on me, flattening me like a pancake. But hey, today, I am a happy lady and I congratulate myself on my break up. No one ever says that, do they? Like... Heyyyyy, Congratulations on your break up!!!!

Somewhere along all these, I fell in love again - with my new life. I realised that while I still hoped one day to find real and lasting love, the life I am leading in the meantime is fantastic! In some ways, that was what I'd been looking for all along - happiness that came from within. I didn't need a man to fulfill me. I found new and meaningful ways to lead a fulfilling life on my own terms.

There is life after all the pain. It does get better. You just have to have a little faith. After all, it's just a break UP not a break DOWN. Hah!

Eat That Frog

I woke up at noon, and was rushing for school. You know, today's Wednesday right? 3 Days in a row since Monday, I've been running after the bus. It's always the case where I'm under my block and I see bus, and I dash for it. Sometimes, it's even the same bus driver!

So then yeah, on the way to school I was just thinking about things. I've lost my interest in Cafe Iguana already... It used to be my favourite hang out spot. When I had no one, Cafe Iguana would always be there. It was my get away place. I would feel the warmth, cosyness and how I am just so used to that place. Everything happened there, really, everything. And now? It's been taken away just like that. I cant say anything right, What, do I expect people to not live their life? I'm being...absurd.

One question - If Watsons was something, what about Cafe Iguana?

In class, we were discussing about our assignments and projects which are due very very soon which we have not started at all. I went to the school bookshop today. I am gonna buy this book titled Eat That Frog. An old saying is that "If the first thing you do each morning is to eat a live frog, you can go through the day with the satisfaction of knowing that that is probably the worst thing that is going to happen to you all day long!" Your "FROG" is the one you are most likely to procrastinate on if you don't do something about it now! It is also the one task that can have the greatest positive impact on your life and results at the moment. It has also been said that "If you have to eat two frogs, eat the ugliest one first!" This is another way of saying that if you have two important tasks before you, start with the biggest, hardest, and most important task first.

Discipline yourself to begin immediately and then to persist until the task is complete before you go on to something else.

After school, met Dalia for shopping. I seriously don't even know what I spent on, seems quite little but my greens decrease tremendously. But ahhh, who cares? Oh yeah, I bought MAC eyeliner from my schoolmate. Plus, eyelashes crap, food and shoes. HAHA these shoes, my mum and Praba would kill me if they see it. Cos a few weeks ago, I bought the same shoe. Today I went to the same shop, I saw they had the shoe in another colour so I bought it as well. Now I got 2 pair of shoes with the same design but different colours. HAHA.

Thank goodness Praba isn't with me anymore. He and Mummy have a problem with my shoe shopping uhh. They say I buy the same thing all the time with just a little difference. I always denied. Yikes, I proved them right today.

Dalia bought expensive dress and sandals okay. But worth it. We had late lunch at Sakura. Gossip gossip gossip. Haha. Then went home. Felt like crap awhile but they say it is always good to talk it out so you pass your ainxiety/worry/crapness to the other person. Thanks.

And heyyy, the girl with the broken smile starts grinning again.

Rugby

I woke to a nightmare. Seriously, some people just don't realise where the hell do they stand in life.

Heck it uhhh after that I went to CCAB with Lee to watch Rugby. Police VS Bucks. Aisyah came after that.

We went to Suntec City. We walked around and had dinner at Secret Recipe. We took pictures and ordered our main dish plus the banana chocolate cake.

When we're done, Lee and Aisyah left.

And Dalia came. She ordered Lasagna. Hang out and gossip la. Then we went home.

Boring post. Nice day though.

Sarah's BO

I went to watch movies My Bestfriend's Girl with Fate. Wasn't that nice. We had Pasta Mania for late lunch. And we uncovered juicy gossip. HAHA.

One day we shall all stand near a beautiful garden, with our heads up high, but wait ohh be careful of the unimaginable stink of your life underneath those gorgeous flowers and grass.

OMG. Yuckkk. -.-Haha I have goosebumps thinking about it.

Real Men

Todayyy, Thursday. I woke up earlyyy and went to Sentosa. It wasn't a fun place laaaa but it's fun when you have great company. ((: Plus they had a stay in the Rasa Sentosa resort, so I could relax in the suite and enjoy luxury. The hotel is bloody brilliant. We should all go there one day.

Sadly, I have to go to school after that. Which I am ALWAYS LATE FOR. Actually I left early la, but I left my wallet behind so I went back to get it. And then I missed the bus which I had to wait for about another 15 minutes. Waste timeee siaaa.Then when I alighted, I felt like I just needed to have a stick, of ALL days, usually I don't have it before school. But today, of all days, I decided to have one, I saw my Daddy's car parked in front of my school.

I was like, WTF??? I threw it away immediately and ran to the back of the school. I was thinking is there another entrance/exit to enter school? No. I even wanted to climb over the fence. But can you imagine if someone sees a girl, with her scared face, her long hair, climbing over the fence, when the school's gate is open so, widely.. If someone actually shouts something, and I'll panic and try to cover my face and when I cover, I will not be holding on to anything, I'll just fall back down. That could have hurt.

Sheesh, Can I even climb in the first place? Plus, the fence are by the road. So vehicle drivers/commuters would see me in action. So dammit. I have to walk pass his car. It was parked la, he wasn't there. Oh cos, there's a mosque right in front of my school, so he's prolly there to pray. But still, my goodness, I dodge a bullet there. If he had seen, what I was doing! or what I was wearing, OMGGGG.

I don't think I'll be typing this post now, I would be crying cos I'd be grounded. Haha.I went to class, as usual, ALWAYS LATE. Lecturer pun binget agaknyerrr but force to smile. They say he looks like Bollywood's Tom Cruise. HAHA. I dunnooo laaa. So then during break, I went to the canteen. I still see the car! I said to Farhanah and Pretty, is my Dad spying on me or what? If he is, his doing a good job of hiding himself but certainly not the car. Then suddenly, I saw Daddy appearing, he was wearing his socks and shoes sitting on the steps. He went inside the car and drove off. Phew.

During lunch, I bought sunflower seeds. It's damn addictive. I was thinking, why does sunflower seeds makes me jump? It's like when I see them, I just have to buy it kinda thing. And after I popped one into my mouth, old memories flashed through my mind. I once got sunflower seeds on my first date. I think, THINK, that's one thing he didn't recyle cos the rest he did, chocs and pushpops. He bought it for Piggy. He's so lame. Haha. Okay, kiiddiinnggg. Wait, Really?I love sunflower seeds to the point I was sorta "drinking" it from the container. HAHA. My friends caught me in action. And snapped a pic!

I managed a super short nap in the train. I went to Josh and Noah's place to teach them. I always KINDA enjoyed teaching them. They're a funny team. But sometimes, they can be a nightmare. But you know, when I was having a hard time back them, at times, they were the ones who cheered me up. I mean they didn't know my real problem uhh, but they always told me the funniest stories and make the craziest jokes ever. I reckon this kids would grow up to be nice gentlemen.

I got more cash from tuition and Daddy. Bloody Brilliant. I went shopping after that at the mall nearest to their place, uh-huh and I went home. I'm kinda thinking it is a huge relief after all - the break up. I realise, I don't face as much problems as I ever did before. In fact, all's been good. But I guess, Okay, I admit a little defeat, you miss the good times ONLY. But, then again, not worth to spend another second on it.

Seriously! Boys come and go. Real men, stays yo. Real men, are bloody brilliant. :D